Step One-Memorial service where a slide show of me with my husband and daughters and friends will be played while the saddest, most tear-jerkiest songs I can find are playing in the background, songs sad enough to make even my witchy sister-in-laws who have treated me like dirt for years burst into sobbing messes. That will be followed by a reading of a heart-wrenching letter I write that will cause everyone in the place to use up all their tissues and be forced to wipe their eyes and noses on their dress clothes or on those of the person next to them.
Step Two-My body will lay in state at my home for two weeks during which time my family will poke me with something sharp every hour just to make absolutely sure I am really, truly dead.
Step Three-Once it is ascertained that I am absolutely, positively dead and not just in a very deep sleep, I want to be cremated and have my ashes sprinkled in the woods on our property in NE PA. I'd like my family and a few friends to pack a picnic lunch, the way we have many times before, and sit on a blanket and share stories about me that make them smile or laugh. When they are done, one last toast with a nice glass of wine and then sprinkle me into the wind.
(I'm just joking about steps one and two. I really only want step three.)
56 yrs old, wife, mother to 4 daughters
RC Stage II T3N0M0 DX April 2, 2015
6 cm. mid-rectum-CEA 121
Xeloda and radiation finished 06/15/15- CEA 242
CEA right before surgery 81
LAR performed 8/12/15 Temporary ileostomy
CEA 10-21-15 1.6
PET scan 11-4-15 All clear
Port installed 11/11/15
Folfox started 11/18/15
Folfox stopped due to bad reaction
CEA 2/3/16 1.7
CEA 3/31/16 1.3
CT Scan 4/12/16 All Clear
Port removed 4/21/16
CEA 5/24/17 1.4