It has been about 4 years since my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and given 2 years to live. He recently did his CT scan and received NED status My husband do suffers from manageable side effects because he's still on maintenance chemo but 80% of the time we live a normal life
I just turned 40. As a woman, my "deadline" for having a child is pretty much up and no matter how hard I try, I struggle to see a future except being alone without a family. I feel incredibly guilty to discuss this but having to internalise my feelings has been extremely difficult...I can't discuss with my husband and my friends are "young" and busy with their families so they do not empathise. I have seen multiple psychologists but did not help.
I know it's unfair to discuss this because so many of you are going through an extremely difficult time but I would be so grateful to receive replies or DMs if you're able to share with me how you / your family cope since diagnosis.
To end on a brighter note, we are so thankful for my husband's continuous good health (I thank god every day) and ever so grateful for this support group -- you guys have been my source of light on my darkest days.