The Colon Club

Wow...I am sitting here with so many feelings. Back in 2009, my husband Stephen was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer, mets to the liver. I was very active on this board, and gained so much help and insight over the 11 months he lived. I'd stay up countless hours as he slept, trying to find some sort of avenue that might work, something his doctors hadn't thought of, something we were missing.
Twelve years later, I'm finally writing a book about Stephen. It will be my first. I printed out every single conversation I had here (the stack is about 6 inches thick), and started looking back at folks who were my constant support, and wondering if they were still posting, still helping, still sharing. You ARE! The first person I searched was cptmac because I was reading something back then that was posted...then I saw CRGuy on here and I'm just...amazed and happy and SO overwhelmed. I'm sure there's more but I literally just signed on for the first time in 10 years about 5 minutes ago.
Back then, because of Stephen's journey, I thought to myself "can anyone with Stage IV REALLY live for such a long time??" I read accounts of people I didn't know on the internet doing this, but not anyone I "knew" like I felt I did through this forum...it DOES happen. It DOES.

You all- every single one of you- make so much of a difference, I don't know if you'll ever know how much.

Welllllllll speaking of that bad boy !
HERE I IS

Seriously cindyz that is a wonderful message you posted and people here truly do make a difference.

Mega Cheers and Harmony to you sista'
Thank you for dropping in and keep us up to date on the book.

don't be no stranger now ... you hear ?

CRguy on the Journey

Hi Cindy, I am sorry to hear of your husband's passing. I was touched by your message and I hope you are able to share the book once you have it written. I haven't been on the cancer journey for very long but I am hoping for a long life despite the Stage IV diagnosis. I have 2 and 5 year old darling girls and a wife who I love dearly so I have a lot to fight for.

I'm sorry for the loss of your husband. *hugs*

Hellooooo Cindy!

I remember you! I do! You and your beloved Stephen. I’m not sure if I replied to any of your posts, but I would have if I could have shared my experiences and provided support to you. I do remember reading your posts and how devoted you were to Stephen. I only check in a little here and there nowadays, mainly to offer support to those like me all those years ago because I was so grateful for everyone who helped me then. Nice to hear from you. Thank you for checking in and please keep us updated with your book xxx

My heart, my mind, and my soul will never leave here in so many ways. Going through these things we go through (as patients and caregivers) is an unparalleled crazy ride with so many twists, turns, questions, fears...the love here is astounding.

What a wonderful message. Thanks.
Sorry for your loss.
Ksue