The Colon Club

Sending MEGA Harmony your way my friend
wherever your Journey leads you, it must be YOURS.

We understand the " sick and tired of being sick and tired ! "
It is major sucknitude for sure

Keep on ... keeping ON !
one step, one day at a time.
We will always be here to support you.

CRguy

You know what is best for you, so I wish you peace with your decision and some pain-free days ahead with your family.

Hello everyone...

This is Riki's wife posting this, Ruth. It is with great sadness & tears that I post this but he did wanted me to update this forum when I was strong enough. He passed away at 4 AM on the 18th of November. His last weigh-in was 90 lbs & I'm pretty sure he weighed even less than that when he passed away, probably down to 75 lbs. In his last week he said "I can't believe I'm actually going to die from this" & as much as I wanted & needed to desperately cry, I couldn't because I still had to keep it together for him as crying took a lot of energy out of him. That day he almost fell as he was taking a "step up" from the patio back to the living room. He panicked & cried thinking he almost fell but I was right there walking behind him in case anything happened. I reassured him over & over that he wasn't alone, that I was there with him & to not over think it because nothing happened. His heart beat so fast that I worried he would have a heart attack. It did hurt him though that he was so weak at that point. In the last week, he started to decline faster than ever & even stayed asleep most of the time unless he was in pain & me needing to give him medicine. It was a very painful week emotionally & mentally. The morning of, by some miracle, he was able to talk once again & woke me up around 3:30 am by calling me. I thought I was imagining stuff but it was him trying to talk to me. I went to him & he said he wanted me to help him stand up. His legs were like jelly but between his sister & I, we were able to help him stand up for a few seconds. As I write this, I now realize that I wanted to break down so bad as I held him in my arms for what would be the last time. After sitting him back down, he told me twice in a row "i love you i love you" to which I replied back "and I love you more!" He then looked above me towards the ceiling to look at something ...or someone. I looked up quickly but didn't see anything but then realized, something or someone was there to tell him "it's time to go now" ... to which he took his last few breaths & passed away. Within 1.5 hrs his body was cold .... & the funeral staff was here to pick him up. I had never seen anything like it before but it was REALLY hard to see his body lifted like a little kid who possibly weighed very little. We had his funeral recently on the 27th & a cremation right after. I will miss him SO much!!! and so will our kids. I did create a gofundme account for the funeral but I don't know if such things can be shared here. I also did create a nice video with some of his life highlights. If it is ok to share, I'll post those links. Thank you everyone who was a BIG support system for him & understood the cancer talk, it is so very much appreciated!

With appreciation,
Ruth

Miss him he has been so strong for so long...
Hope God sends you and your family comfort.

Oh Ruth,

This news breaks my heart. I was just thinking about him recently. As you know, your husband was such a fighter and he provided heartfelt words of encouragement to many of us here. I will miss him greatly. Please post the link to your gofundme account because I would like to donate or if posting it is not allowed, please send me a DM with the information. Your husband was truly very special. I used to joke with him and call him my brother.

Peace and love to my brother, Riki, and to his sweet family. Ruth, if you need anything and I sincerely mean it, please DM me.

FUCK CANCER!!!!


Paige

Dearest Ruth,

Please accept my sincere condolences. God bless you and your kids.

RIP Riki. Memory eternal.

We are so very sorry for your loss Ruth.
Please share your video with us here and as others have mentioned, the gofundme link would be best shared privately
via Private Message or email through Rikimarro's member account here.

Please feel welcome here for support from other members, as they learn of your loss.
Our Mod CRguy has already posted an In Memoriam to honour your husband.

With Sympathy for your loss.

Im so sorry Ruth. Riki fought so hard, wishing you and yours strength.

Feeling incredibly sad for you and your children, Ruth. This disease is truly awful and so cruel. It’s difficult to believe that Riki won’t be posting here anymore, he was such a strong voice on the forum! Thank you for sharing his last moments with us. He was lucky to have you as a companion through the ups and downs of life... Wishing you much strength for the days to come.
Much love,
Claudine

This is very sad. I wish you and your children strength and comfort as you grieve. Riki was a brave and forthright voice on this forum, and contributed much to the knowledge and understanding of the patients and caregivers who post here. Characteristically, your post on his behalf provides deep inspiration as well. It is a good thing that he was able to find the strength and heart to give you his love at the last. Not everyone can do such a thing, and I hope it brings you comfort in the future. Peace.

Heartbreaking... As a new member of this forum, I found Riki's messages to be a source of much-needed strength and resilience. Ruth, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family...

Ruth, my heart hurts so bad right now. You were blessed to have him in your life. He was such an important man here on the forum.
I will miss him so much!
I would also like to know about the gofundme for my friend Rikimaroo.

My condolences. He was very knowledgeable and helped guide a lot of people here.

I am really sorry for your loss. Please, DM me with the gofundme link.
Sending you and your family love and light
Patricia

I am very sorry for your loss Ruth. It is tremendously hard for those of us that are caregivers. I am happy that he told you he loved you. My wife was unconscious for the last several days of her life and we could not discuss our feelings. I was quite the wreck for some time afterwards. Took me more than a year I would say to regain my mental balance. I thought I was getting dementia for a while as I would walk into a room and forget why I went in there. For me my attention span and short-term memory seemed to be in disarray. I hope you don't experience that. I hope you have family and friends nearby to help you through your grief. I didn't.

Sincerely

GrouseMan