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Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Sep 20, 2022 9:02 am
by Rikimaroo
Hello,

Everyone, where too start. So after my first immunotherapy session the next day (Saturday) I needed to get a blood transfusion because I was low. Then later that night I was bleeding from my bottom again alot and honestly it most likely was mixture of blood and mucus and drainage stuff....So I went to the ER spent Saturday to Monday there for them to monitor my blood levels. They also did a CT Scan and the tumor in pelvic is causing issues with bladder and fistulas. They didn't do much other then at least identify that I have fistula from tumor to anal region that's the two bumps I keep feeling, nothing can be done surgically right now.

Spoke with my new doctor at UM and he says immunotherapy takes are 4th treatment to see results and determine if it is making any improvements so will be trying my best to survive until then. It's been hard, I can't control my peeing anymore, it just comes out when it wants to. I have a little urinal I pee in if needed or when I am just tired and sleepy I just pee in my depends diaper which has worked, but it get's soaked at night and I have to get up and change it all dry up and back to the same routine.

I am at my wits end with the peeing myself, but glad its coming out either way. I Prefer to control and pee, but the pelvic tumor is a destructive force right now in my pelvic and affecting everything. I am so skinny, 121LBs, I am having a hard time gaining weight. Even though I am not eating exactly the way I use to, I still eat enough to gain some weigh. I don't know what to do here about gaining weight.

By the way I am always COLD. Anyone else have this problem? I am always always cold, my finger are freezing my hands shoulders, I am always covering. I feel like I am just wasting away guys. I just took a boost this morning, but I sent a message to my doctor about if there are any multivitamins I can take that won't interfere with treatment, I need to start gaining some weigh to get strength.

Well that is my update for now.

Riki

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Sep 20, 2022 9:19 am
by claudine
Oh Riki you are going through so much :cry:
I bet the cold is related to you being so skinny, you probably have zero fat left.
Have you started immunotherapy yet? How far apart are the treatments?
Sending lots of thoughts your way XXXXX

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Sep 20, 2022 4:13 pm
by roadrunner
Riki: I wish you good fortune in getting to the 4th treatment to see where things stand and maybe start turning things around. I also wish you strength in these current difficult times.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Wed Sep 21, 2022 10:29 am
by Peregrine
Riki-

What is your BMI right now? You should not let it drop below 18.5, because that is the cutoff for the cachexia danger zone:

https://coloncancersupport.colonclub.com/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=46365&p=340274#p340274

https://coloncancersupport.colonclub.com/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=58606&p=461434#p461434

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Wed Sep 21, 2022 3:25 pm
by beach sunrise
I admire you very much for being so open about your cancer, side effects and personal hell!
I think about you every day and am so happy you post updates.
Hopefully you will turn the corner soon and treatments works to lessen the struggles.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Thu Sep 22, 2022 4:15 pm
by Atoq
I am so happy to read this! Really fantastic news!

All the best


Claudia

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2022 3:06 pm
by Rikimaroo
Hello All Update:

I basically signed up for Hospice care. I am done guys tired of it all. I Just got nephrostomy bags put in because I was going into renal failure because of tumor pressing on my ureter.

Bottom line the Immunotherapy doesn't work for me or my type of cancer I knew this going in MSS is not a candidate unless high TMB which maybe on of my tumors highlighted as such with liquid biopsy, but liquid biopsy is not better then tissue biopsy and main tumor in pelvic TMB is 3.75 which is really low. Even my new Onc said it doesn't work for me but wanted to give it a shot because he likes to go outside the box.

Also insurance company not paying I ended up paying for a portion and I am just honest SICK of everything. SICK OF DOCTORS, sick of pokes, sicks of scans, sick of procedures, just want to relax and enjoy my life as much as I can.

I want to go peacefully at this point, I am going to try on natural tea that this company sold me here to give it a shot as a last ditch effort, but honestly guys I am ready.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2022 4:04 pm
by MadMed
Breaks my heart Riki. I wish i could give you a hug. I wish peace for you and yours. You gave it all.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2022 5:53 pm
by claudine
This horrible, horrible disease. After all you've been through, I had so much hope for immunotherapy, for you to finally catch a break.
Words are so inadequate...
I wish you a peaceful time with your loved ones.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2022 8:29 pm
by roadrunner
Riki: I am sad to hear this news. I wish you strength and peace.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2022 10:48 pm
by beach sunrise
We all love you, Riki!
I pray you live pain free and make long lasting memories for your family.
My oncologist recommended a book about how how the soul lives on. I will ask again about the book because I didn't write it down. I lost the light of my life last year and am still having a very hard time, still in the day it happened, but anyway, onc suggested the read so I will pass it on to you.

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Wed Oct 05, 2022 8:26 am
by utahgal7
Riki,

Oh no, no, no, no no!!! I was praying every day for you, man! I had such high hopes that immunotherapy was going to work for you. Cancer is so f*cking awful and so unfair. You have fought so hard and for so long. Now, your body can rest.
I will miss you! My heart is breaking.

Peace and love to you, my brother,

Paige

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Wed Oct 05, 2022 9:05 am
by claudine
Duplicate...

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Wed Oct 05, 2022 9:16 am
by Luna18
I am so, so sorry. It also breaks my heart. You dont know me but I have followed your journey for long time. This is so unfair! I was really hoping that Immunotherapy was going to work!
Sending you and your family love and light,
Patricia

Re: Update after 2nd opinion discussion

Posted: Wed Oct 05, 2022 10:50 am
by Rikimaroo
Thank you guys so much for the posts it’s very very touching I really appreciate it just so y’all know I’m not dying this minute lol but the decision to stop everything is just so I can be comfortable I’m so tired of it.

Last night was the first time I actually went to bed at 12 and woke up at seven I’ve never had a long day sleep in a while.

Honestly guys I don’t even know what to say I will I’m gonna be in a couple of months just gonna let things flow as it is enjoy life stop thinking about negative stuff and that’s it I love all of you guys for being so kind helpful and let’s keep on chatting and fighting I feel for each one of your family members that are going through this it’s not easy it causes a lot of stress

Everyone thinks they have a cure for you becomes very aggravating