The Colon Club

brokenwings wrote:You were there from the beginning and it's only fair that you're there at the end.

Beginnings and endings are only checkpoints along the way.
You are on a Journey and we are here with you.
Whatever you choose must be right for you and we will support you.

Sending Love Peace and Harmony to you my friend
on your Journey

CRguy

boxhill wrote:I've thought about what I would do if the only treatment available to me was Lonsurf. I've thought that I would choose the same path as you. But no one knows what they will chose until they are there, and no one knows but you.

A friend of mine told be about her conversation with her husband of many decades, who suffered from diabetes, and had many operations and treatments, including amputation, and organ damage. He was hospitalized, facing one last possible procedure, which was at best a Hail Mary pass that would give him a little more time. He told her that he was just tired, too tired. She quoted to him the last two lines of the deeply moving poem, Invictus:

"I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul."

I wish all the best for you.

Thank you for your moving message.... I read a lot about Lonsurf and I really don't think my cancer's profile coincides with that of those rare patients who had success with this drugs.
So I just told my oncologist I wanted to stop all. She understood.

CRguy wrote:

brokenwings wrote:You were there from the beginning and it's only fair that you're there at the end.

Beginnings and endings are only checkpoints along the way.
You are on a Journey and we are here with you.
Whatever you choose must be right for you and we will support you.

Sending Love Peace and Harmony to you my friend
on your Journey

CRguy

Thank you for your support. I've decided to stop everything. I'm praying to still have some good weeks and be able to enjoy my last summer on this beautiful Earth.

I'm so very sorry.*hugs* Sending you peace and love.

DarknessEmbraced wrote:I'm so very sorry.*hugs* Sending you peace and love.

Thank you.

Hi Paola, I am so heartbroken to read this. I hope and pray you have the best summer ever with many joys, smiles and really high spirit lifting good times.
Please keep posting if you can/want to. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hi Paola,
I wish you all the little things, that bring you smiles.
And with all the strength you have kept up, through each step of your dance with this beast, let that same energy now fill your moments with both tranquil and exciting experiences.
Peace and Prayers to you, and those who love you.

beach sunrise wrote:Hi Paola, I am so heartbroken to read this. I hope and pray you have the best summer ever with many joys, smiles and really high spirit lifting good times.
Please keep posting if you can/want to. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you. I'm on a trip now. So far so good...

DeeMeee wrote:Hi Paola,
I wish you all the little things, that bring you smiles.
And with all the strength you have kept up, through each step of your dance with this beast, let that same energy now fill your moments with both tranquil and exciting experiences.
Peace and Prayers to you, and those who love you.

Thank you very much.

We’ve been on this road together, and reading what you’ve all been through makes me sad for what sounds like a very tough journey. I’m so glad to hear you are planning to enjoy your summer - you certainly deserve that and more.

A book you may find helpful: Journey of Souls, reco’d to me by my therapist when I couldn’t stop thinking about dying. It brought me to a better place, even though I’m still not sure I believe all of it! I liked the idea that I picked this life to learn something; and somehow that made everything feel less out of my control.

Will be thinking of you and sending all my positive energy, so that your immune system keeps you going and enjoying your days as best you can.

With love, Gina

ginabeewell wrote:We’ve been on this road together, and reading what you’ve all been through makes me sad for what sounds like a very tough journey. I’m so glad to hear you are planning to enjoy your summer - you certainly deserve that and more.

A book you may find helpful: Journey of Souls, reco’d to me by my therapist when I couldn’t stop thinking about dying. It brought me to a better place, even though I’m still not sure I believe all of it! I liked the idea that I picked this life to learn something; and somehow that made everything feel less out of my control.

Will be thinking of you and sending all my positive energy, so that your immune system keeps you going and enjoying your days as best you can.

With love, Gina

Dear Gina,

You were one of the first to welcome me to this forum and I will never forget it. It means a lot to me as well that you write back now. Thank you for your loving message.
I'll check the book.

Hugs.

Paola

Hope you had a good trip !
Thinking of you and sending much love. Hope you get many good times over the summer with your family !
Stu

stu wrote:Hope you had a good trip !
Thinking of you and sending much love. Hope you get many good times over the summer with your family !
Stu

Thank you ♡

Paola -

I'm so sorry to hear that your peri-met treatments are no longer working. I was hopeful that all your trips to Lyon for treatment would be worth the effort. And it was so disappointing that your difficult cytoreductive surgery / HIPEC procedure did not completely wipe out the peri-mets.

I hope that you are able to have some time now to enjoy whatever time you have left. If you are able to continue to travel now and over the summer, maybe you could plan a trip over to the Alps or somewhere else peaceful, just to get away from the bad weather and chaos there in the Île-de-France and enjoy some quiet serenity.

Whenever I now see a reference in the news to the Gare de Lyon or the A6 motorway, I will think of you and wonder how you are doing. In the past couple of months I noticed that you had been logging in here every other day or so but never posting any messages until finally you started this current thread. It must have been very difficult and heart-wrenching for you to finally decide to post that message.

I'll be thinking of you over the summer and beyond, and will say a prayer for safe journeys wherever you decide to go next.

Take care, and God bless you.

Green Tea wrote:Paola -

I'm so sorry to hear that your peri-met treatments are no longer working. I was hopeful that all your trips to Lyon for treatment would be worth the effort. And it was so disappointing that your difficult cytoreductive surgery / HIPEC procedure did not completely wipe out the peri-mets.

I hope that you are able to have some time now to enjoy whatever time you have left. If you are able to continue to travel now and over the summer, maybe you could plan a trip over to the Alps or somewhere else peaceful, just to get away from the bad weather and chaos there in the Île-de-France and enjoy some quiet serenity.

Whenever I now see a reference in the news to the Gare de Lyon or the A6 motorway, I will think of you and wonder how you are doing. In the past couple of months I noticed that you had been logging in here every other day or so but never posting any messages until finally you started this current thread. It must have been very difficult and heart-wrenching for you to finally decide to post that message.

I'll be thinking of you over the summer and beyond, and will say a prayer for safe journeys wherever you decide to go next.

Take care, and God bless you.

Dear Green Tea,

I'm very moved by the fact that you remember my "journey" in such details. Yes, it is tragic that all the effort, money and time my husband and I invested in my peritoneal treatments didn't pay off the way we expected... Cancer is a cruel foe, always three steps ahead of us...

I spent last week in Corsica and it was beautiful. Coming back home was very difficult though...

If my body cooperates, we'd like to go to Provence for a week ot so... Fingers crossed.

Thank you for your heartfelt words, they mean so much to me.

Hugs.

Paola