LivinginHope wrote:Small update:
First Oxi IV infusion is on Tues 15th Dec. Then the Xeloda (Capecitabine) tablets will start that evening and finish on the morning of Day 15 (day 1 of the 7 day break).
We've got prepared, he has a big warm coat, scarf and gloves at the ready. We've also roughly worked out the dates of all 8 rounds (assuming all goes to plan and on time etc) so we can visualise and come to terms with it all I guess. Also helped us to know when we can have sperm analysis and start trying to conceive naturally.
He is feeling okay about it all, obviously not looking forward to it but knows its for the best and just wants to get started. I'm very up & down, I'm also keen to just get it started so we're on the start of the journey and one step closer to the end of treatment.
But I'm also ridiculously anxious about what side effects he may get, how bad they'll be, how and if I can help, then whether the chemo will do what it's meant to and stop it coming back. I know no-one knows what will happen in the future, I hope that over time the worry and anxiety will become manageable. Biggest fear right now is that he'll get through a few months of the chemo and then have a scan that shows mets and upgrades it to stage 4 and the treatment becomes longer and means we can start a family. Not a good day, I'll probably be okay tomorrow aha.
I'm glad he's getting started soon. Once I got my first infusion under my belt it was a lot easier for me mentally.