Mohrfamily wrote:Well this is it. my liver has ben taking over by cancer. and still climbing at very fast rate. so to all my friends and family.. now would be the time at ur convence to come say good byes. PM me. thank u.
My husband's Facebook post today, and just like that my world crashes all around me and our son has a music program for 2nd grade tonight
It's well documented that patients with positive attitudes are better able to cope with disease and treatment-related problems. His attitude is one of resignedness to his "fate" and in the long run that's his choice. When the cancer is growing, you're in pain, and chemo is causing its own brand of misery, resignation can be very seductive. You are tired, scared, and sick, and the chemicals coursing through your veins also affect your emotions. I don't blame him, even though I know of others who would love to be in his place since he still has options and they don't.
At the risk of sounding judgemental though, I think you are being subjected to emotional blackmail which is making things worse for you both. This choice is his and you are in no way to blame for whatever decision he makes.
I think you need to have a long, honest conversation with him about what he wants instead of getting your info from his Facebook page. Does he want to stop treatment and go into palliative care, despite the fact that he hasn't run out of options yet (including clinical trials)? Would he like to speak with a counselor about that decision to make sure he understands what that entails?
And, frankly, you need support too. This is emotionally draining for you. You can only do so much for him. Don't make yourself ill because of this. Your son needs his mum. I hope you can get the support (counseling, family, close friends) that you need to get through this. That is key.