I want to share a brief chapter of my cancer journey as it involves this website and I suspect others will experience the same thing. I found this place shortly after my stage 3 diagnosis early last year and it gave me a ton of support and information. I kind of re-discovered (even though I was here on a daily basis) this place during treatment when I’d dr. Google things relevant to my situation and would find posts here from the past. Thing was, most of them were from 3, 4, 5 or more years ago. I’d read the threads but really find myself concentrating on the sig blocks from way back when. Saw a lot of them similar to me but who had dropped off the radar with little fanfare. It took a while but I figured out that most all of them had rolled with the odds and survived and moved on.
I loved reading those old posts and seeing that the posters had later dropped off the radar. I thought of them as ghosts. I don’t remember if I ultimately made a post about being a ghost, which is what I wanted and aspired to be. And to some degree I now am. I know I’m in the sweet spot for recurrence but cancer is almost all gone from my day-to-day life. Maybe it’s selfish but I don’t check in here much. I don’t feel guilty about it and, frankly, I hope you all fade away one day.
In short, fuck cancer.