well ... was hoping colonoscopy last week would provide a definitive answer (better yet relief) to the case of the 13 mm nodular density noted on my latest CT scan at the suture line of my prior anastomosis.
Colorectal surgeon missed the spot initially but as he was concluding the colonoscopy, he noticed what the radiologist had noted on his report ... a submucosal mass. He biopsied - on Thursday - the results were not back today but I am already scheduled for another resection, Low Anterior Resection to be exact, on Wednesday. He said given my history (stage 4) and after consulting my oncologist, they want to take it out for further examination and this would also give him an opportunity to ' have a look inside" while he is doing my robotic surgery.
The CT scan did not note any other abnormalities and in fact stated no evidence of metastatic disease. I am numb, shocked, scared ... don't really know what to think! My original resection was in June of 2011 ... been in remission for 5 years. Why now? I am emotionally a mess ... I cannot think of what else it could be ... he must know something he is not sharing with me because on the pre-op papers today, I noticed the reason for my surgery was stated as colon cancer ... but he never officially told me the mass was cancer. Would he hide this from me to spare my feelings?
Has anyone had a similar scare? ... please keep me in your prayers. I know I have not posted here for some time, I honestly was trying to gain some normal and get over my lingering depression by distancing myself from anything that reminded me of the experience ... but I guess once you enter this world, there is no forgetting it.
I welcome any experiences, thoughts ... and encouragements. Wishing everyone well on your journeys.