It’s been way to long of a time since I have even logged into my page I have thought about the reasons why I have not been on the board for a while and I could only think of 2 reasons. No I wasn’t mad, even when the board would get hot. I’d just ignore it until it cooled down, that is unless they bashed the admins then I would be vocal. Don’t you dare bash my admins!
#1 Chemo has not been kind to me and I didn’t want to scare anyone into thinking that they would have to deal with what I have been though. I don’t understand all the technical stuff about cancer so I could only offer encouragement and support. It’s hard to encourage someone when you feel like crap!
#2 Emotionally it is so hard for me when we lose a fellow member on this board. When we lost Belle, Voxx and others my heart just ached. Even though I had never met these people we shared something in common and I felt like they were my very best friends. I’d mourn for them and their families and wonder how my family would react when I was gone. I just broke my heart time and time again. I needed a break and now I need some encouragement.
Most of you won’t know me at all because you are so new but those of you that have been around a while will remember me. I was dx 6.5 years ago stage 4. My second round of chemo in 2014 just about did me in. I spent more time in the hospital after I finished chemo than when I was on it. I struggled into 2015 still not doing great and was told in August that they wanted to remove my lower lobe of my left lung. Which gave me hope. Well by Oct we found out that my cancer had returned so that was tabled. Began round number 3 immediately, again it is no walk in the park. I have 4 txts left and I’m determined to make it. The problem is my side effects are getting horrible. My onc sits and listens to me but says that they are all normal for my chemo and it will get better. Just the thought of 2 more months feeling like this is hard to fathom. Just writing this is making me feel better about it. Thanks for listening!
Tammy