So It has come to my attention that my poor prognosis husband has been pursuing escorts for a few months (although he denies having met any) I have proof that he has been online chatting and trying to meet them.He seemed so utterly desperate to connect with them. I was already hanging on by a thread with the processing of his disease,and latest prognosis...but now this really has me all bent out of shape!!
I love him and don't plan to give him the boot,I also won't let him die desperate and alone in some hotel..... Geeze this is so damn hurtful !!
Now that I confronted him he says he is grateful he did not meet them. However I do still plan to get tested for STDs
I guess he saw it as a attempt to fulfill some kinky fantasies before he gets weak and dies.
Do I really have a say in how he wants to conduct his last time here on earth?
Yes we were slightly emotionally disconnected before this happened and since this happened we are way more connected but now I am left with insecurity .
All the emotional dynamics of his cancer on our family for the past 7 years is very likely to end up giving me some kind of cancer!!! I fell like there is a burning hole in my chest.
Any input here appreciated.