With all the bad news on this board recently I feel a little bad complaining about this
but I know you are the only people who can understand
My neuropathy seems to get worst when the weather changes and in new york the weather has been crazy lately. Normally the pain is about a 4 , manageable with the cymbalta, pain patches and ½ to one vicoden a week or so.
Since last fri/sat the pain in intense about a 8 to 9, I can’t sleep with the pain, my feet hurt all the time no matter what i do/don’t do. Usually after I exercise everything feels good for a while but not this week. The pain during my workout is bad and after even worst.
I can’t sleep, don’t want to eat don’t want to do anything really
I took the vicoden on sat/sun/tue and had a drink last night (figured if the pills don’t work at least have a drink- well no when I have a drink normally the neuropathy gets worst and today is no exception) and have felt hung over all week along with the pain.
I am cranky, argumentative and just generally a pain in the ass to be around, I have told a few people about it when they asked why I look so bad ( I love when people tell you how bad you look- are you sick? No just pissed off at the world)
And the response is this blank look then you still have that pain what caused it? why don’t you do yoga, therapy eat mango ect) .
Then I have to bite my lip so I don’t rip their head off and say no its from the chemo, it will never go away and please just leave me the hell alone before I kill you you normal person.
Maybe I should just crawl back in bed ( take a pill), tell them at work I am not sick just can’t deal with people right now and sleep with my dog till it goes away, though he likes to lay on my feet and even the feel of his fur makes me go nuts
Thanks for listening