Postby Pollyanna » Tue Nov 21, 2006 12:21 am
Yes, I've wondered about this myself. I grew up in a pretty volatile household, and spend most of my childhood walking on eggshells. So, not to play the blame game, but I started to wonder about all the roiling inside and if it had anything to do with my cancer.
I've always lived in fear of everything, but when I got my diagnosis, it strangely melted away. I guess the realization of one's mortality makes taking risks not so scary. And, if you can face cancer head-on, what could possibly come your way that's worse?
I've started to really examine how I get stressed, and how I tend to take on everyone's stress, and I've started to really let that go. And it feels pretty darn good. Living in a house with 2 teenagers, there's plenty of drama on a daily basis, but I've given them back ownership of their stress - it's really not my issue to deal with.
So is there a connection? I believe so. If you have all this emotional churning inside you, and it doesn't come out, it's got to manifest itself somehow, somewhere inside.