Magnolia,
Yeap, I'm new here! Just found this site this week. I like the fact it's called
The Colon Club cause I call the "prep" for colonoscopies "The Initiation to the Colon Cleanse Club"!!!
My story: I was out in CA working on some Indie films as a costume designer and then ran out of $$$ so i went to Borders, books and music (thank goodness cause i got the insurance...praying they get all this stuff out before my COBRA runs out)!! I was only 30 when they diagnoised me this past June with Stage III colon cancer. I probably still woudn't have know if it hadn't metastasied to the head of my pancreas. of course my family doc was surpised i didn't have any worse symptoms with the size it had grown too.
My symptons started in mid april this year with a movie hot dog one night and it felt like my stomach was being pumped full of air with a vise squeezing down and no gas coming out...then servere back pain. i couldn't move it hurt so bad...it wasn't the typical 'why did i eat that crap' symptoms of gas. of course it took me like 2 1/2 times of that to go 'ok you need to get checked out this is too weird." i was anemic, losing weight, wanted to sleep a lot (which is complete opposite of me cause my middle name is GO!), couldn't eat anything with any kind of fats in it without my stuff freaking out. and my stools started to get real weird. the first doc i went to thought it was gall bladder and thought i had an enlarged abdomial areorta (dude it was the tumor she was feeling). she never gave me the fecal occult blood test just the finger up the bum 'oh there's no blood there'. i ended up moving home to see my family doc here cause i knew something was seriously wrong with me. the very first thing my family doc gave me was the fecal occult blood test (i call it the poop on a stick test) ; ) none of my doc's here could understand how the first doc couldn't feel the tumor. in california i had an ultra sound and the tech was sooo mean and it hurt soooo bad when she kept going over the spot where my tumor was.
they couldn't see the tumor and felt like i was making stuff up. i'm a strong advocate and knew something was seriously wrong with me. so glad i moved back home...of course it took till the 3rd scan here to finally see the sucker! but my doc never gave up on me and kept trying to find out what was wrong with me. also, the tech's here are soooo nice and wicked cool...i'm sooo glad i moved home!!! i'm kinda glad they didn't find it in CA cause i know i wouldn't have my family with me. they have been a source of strength and i've got the best group of friends that back me up 110%...my sister and one of my best friends chopped their hair for locks of love when i ended up shaving my head and donating my hair to locks of love. i wanted to do it before all my hair came out...stuff is already growing back but it's thinned out.
I've had one surgery so far to resect my colon but he couldn't get the rest of it out cause it was surrounding a major vein/head of my pancreas (sucks to be unique)! There was only a 10% success rate if they would've proceded so glad they stopped. I can't be more thankful for such a great treatment team (I call them my fellow Knight's in arms)
I'm going through chemo now and starting round 8 tomorrow. My doc wants me to go through the whole 12 cycles to end at the end of january. The AWESOME news is as of my 4th round of chemo the tumor had shrunk 50%!!!!! So I'm responding really well to the chemo. I do a lot of meditation, positive imagery, praying, and THINK SHRINK!!! I've got "Shrink" signs all over my house...it kind looks like an upside down V and has Shrink in a decending font.
I can't wait till they do my next CEA test to see how it's going! I tried asking my doc what the next step is after chemo but he wants to wait and see how it all goes after the cycles are done. my family doc and first surgeon are pushing for the next surgery...which would be the whipple procedure (big time major yanking stuff out and rehooking you all up)...it's more for pancreatic cancer surgery but since mine spread there that's what the doc's at IU are planning. kinda ironic that the gall bladder would come out with that surgery since that's what the first doc thought it was!
So how is life after chemo???!!! i can't wait till my chemo is done. i can't wait to get my old energy back. When does the nasty metalic taste in your mouth go away? Man i'll be glad when i can eat spicy foods again too!
Stay Strong and Positive =)
"When you've been abandoned in the desert and the vultures are circling and squawking at you...raise you fist at them and yell "I'M NOT DEAD YET!!!"
Stage IV @ 30 yrs. 6/06 Ms. April 2008
Recurrence to pancreas 2/09 & 6/10