The Colon Club

Hi, I am not a whiner or complainer usually but for the last few days I have felt terrible mentally. It doesn't help that the prebiotic I began taking is really tearing my stomach up and haven't had IVC for 2 wks because of the holiday. I know it bothers my family as they can tell something just isn't going right with me, ha.

Sorry to hear that . I don’t blame you for feeling rough it’s a lot to go through .

I know as a daughter there were times I wanted to make things better for my mum but could not ! But thankfully they were not too often and the bettered days surfaced again . There is so much going on just now on top of treatment it’s hard to keep it all heading in the right direction.

Hope you feel a bit better soon .

Stu ( or his mum actually !)

Thanks for the sweet note!
I will be happy when I shake this feeling for sure.

Those are very understandable feelings, especially during the Holidays when everyone is expected to be cheerful! My husband was on the phone with his father recently, and when asked about new year resolutions, he replied, "hum, staying alive?". It can be very hard to be upbeat all the time, especially when you hear people having goals for the new year like "run a marathon" or "travel to blablabla" or "cut down on processed sugar"...

Sometimes I resent my husband's gloomy mood, but I cannot fathom what goes through his mind on a daily basis. He's trying very hard to be positive, and I'm trying very hard to give him space to be upset. My impression over the past 3 years, is that it's somewhat cyclical, even when we get not so good news, eventually he'll rally, until the next dark phase.

I hope the days growing longer will help! Take care XXXXX

Thank you, Claudine! It is a combo for sure. It's terrible feeling this way. It didn't help any when I cleaned the closet out Found some things that really bothered me. I finally got IVC today so maybe that will boost my mood and YES we need longer days. I actually took a blanket out in the field and just layed in the sun but couldn't really just lay there and soak it all in because the dogs and cat all over me, lol...

Hi Beach,

Hang in there, we are in the same boat, sometimes wondering if our paddle will fall in the water, or it tries to fall in the water and we grab it right before it does and keep on moving. The struggle is definitely real!! LOL...

I also have my ups and downs. There are times when I am watching a movie, or youtube video or old pictures of myself before cancer struct me and I ask myself what the hell happened?? How did this happen to me?? Why Lord?? The colostomy, or the port on my chest, or the infusions of avastin every 3 weeks, or the xeloda pills every other 7 days, or the taking pills to control gas or everything that is now my normal compared to the easier normal life I had before 2016 cross my mind daily and remind me daily and sometimes discourages me daily, but I press on, for my family, for myself...

Oh and yes, there is some grump in me, I can be that grumpy old troll, I hate it, especially if I am feeling abdomen discomfort. Really makes you a grump. I usually hide in my man cave when I am a grump.

We got this I just need 30 more years, LOL...

Best
Rikimaroo

[/quote] hide in my man cave when I am a grump[/quote]

LOL Riki, my husband does the same

We got this I just need 30 more years, LOL...

One day at a time eventually they do add up!

I actually took a blanket out in the field and just layed in the sun

Obviously you don't live in Montana
I did buy vitamin D for my husband, we tend to be chronically low here...

Thank you all for the supportive replies! I'm feeling better. It's so good to know I have people that understand!
I am focusing on my friend coming to visit next month.

Sorry for the late reply... I haven’t been spending much time in the forum but I’ll log on every now and then.

I hope you’re feeling better since the last post. All of us here understand what you’re going through and it doesn’t help with our current climate of bad world news and winter gloom combo!

Just an idea maybe it might help — For my husband’s Christmas present, I bought for him a digital photo frame which I’ve pre-loaded on the cloud with happy moments of our travels together. I think he loves it very much because the photo frame will show a different photo every day and it brings back wonderful memories. I guess we could all do small things like this to try elevate the mood at home.

Hi Siti, you are so sweet, I swear! It comes and goes, so I am getting out of my funk . I love the idea of the picture frame. I am such a picture person