I'm so sorry you're going through this Andrea but, like the others, I'm wondering if we're missing an important piece of information. Why do you think you're going to die? Cancer is not the death sentence it once was and Stage I is curable. It might be a tough 6 months but then you'll likely be done and you can get on with the rest of your life. Based on my own personal experience with cancer, I would encourage you to very strongly consider going through with treatment. I was diagnosed as Stage I many years ago during a routine, baseline colonoscopy. The cancer was removed during the colonoscopy but there was a lot of high grade dysplasia - precancerous cells - in surrounding tissue. I elected not to have surgery but instead to have them try to scrape away the dysplasia over a period of a few months, and to wait and watch instead. If I knew then what I know now, I would have had the surgery. I went through several subsequent follow-up colonoscopies, all clear, and then BAM! - all of a sudden I was Stage IV. From clear to Stage IV in 3 years. Go figure. Please give yourself a chance. Please talk to your oncologist. Please get a second opinion at a major cancer center, hopefully from a GI cancer specialist, before you give up. Stage I is curable.
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Nov-2009 Early stage CRC found during routine colonoscopy
2010, 2011, 2014 Follow up colonoscopies, all clear
Jun-2016 CRC found during routine follow up colonoscopy, surgery, Stage 4, KRAS, MSS, inoperable lung mets
Aug-2016-May-2018 Folfox, 5FU & Avastin, 5FU, Folfiri & Cyramza
Aug/Sep-2018 YAG laser surgeries (Germany) on both lungs, 11 nodules (9 mets) removed
Nov-2018 clean CT scan
Mar-2019 New lung nodules
Apr/Jul-2019 Xeloda/Avastin, SBRT
Sept-2019 Continue Xeloda/Avastin