Funny I was just discussing this with my therapist today. His view is that the future is unknowable - for everyone, not just cancer patients. But because we have a lot of statistics available to us, we tend to have a false confidence in how we think things will play out (as evidenced by your “maybe a year”, and “knowing what lies ahead” comments). The reality is there is no way to know this for any individual case or person.
Given the future is unknowable, what we can do however is have faith in our ability to cope and handle it, whatever may happen. This doesn’t mean it will necessarily be pleasant, but that we can manage. You have already been through a lot (tough diagnosis, tough chemo, tough surgery), and you have demonstrated repeatedly your competency and capacity to handle adversity. So all you can do is believe in your ability to continue to handle and make the most of whatever the future might bring - positive or otherwise.
Sorry I know this isn’t necessarily great, but I found it more helpful than the “just think positively!” approach.
Male 37; Australia
10/2018 Dx 3.5cm RC adenocarcinoma, 12cm from AV
Mod diff, EMVI+ LVI+
3 LN; 4 liver mets
pT3pN1aM1a; Stage IVa. MSS, NRAS (G13R)
CEA: Oct-18= 12; Nov-18= 14, Mar-19= 2.4, Aug-19 <2.0
11/18 - FOLFOX x6
3/19 - Liver resection
4-5/19 - 25 x pelvic radiation; complete met. response
07/19 - ULAR (robot), temp ileo, 1/27 LN
08/19 - Missed a liver spot
08-11/19 - FOLFOX x1, FOLFOXIRI x1, FOLFIRI x5
12/19 - Liver resection #2
02/20 - Ileostomy reversed