Thanks for the replies everyone. It is almost two weeks since the end of Chemo-Radiation. I am feeling much better. Not good or normal, but every day I feel distinctly better than the day before. During the therapy weeks I got gradually worse, and can now see that I lost track of how crappy I was feeling. I'm happy that I was able to ride my bike to treatment and work during the whole treatment, except on really rainy days. In the last two weeks I had to be really careful going over bumps, but stretching my legs and getting some fresh air and some endorphins flowing was absolutely needed.
During the last week of treatment my tiredness mostly went away. That was a little problem because I really wanted/needed to sleep. Up to then I was always ready to sleep and would have really vivid dreams. In the last week that just went away. The bottoms of my feet also got really sore. It felt kind-of like walking on bruises, but the skin looked normal. Getting out on the bike and raising my heartrate also helped with that.
We fly to the US on Friday. It should be no big deal. I've told a couple friends that I'm sick and they're trying to make time to come visit. Either in the US or back in Germany.
The food drama continues. Going home at night and dinner time is like walking on eggs, and several time per week ends with me getting screamed at about how I'm killing myself because I didn't eat the right amount of fruit at the right times, or just more screaming just because. But always so much screaming. Last night I tried to cook a vegetable noodle dish that I like and got stopped because anything I find appetizing is a bad influence on our daughter and probably causes cancer. There's no law that says it has to make sense.
Scans scheduled when we get back, and surgery in mid-december. Almost certainly systemic chemo after that. So I'm done with the easy part! Lol.
Most likely stage III, RC
DX starting 14.08.2019
Pooping blood, urgent care, colonoscopy, biopsy, CT, MRI, next step TBD
6 cm long tumor, 5cm above anocutaneous line
At least one lymph node likely
Tumor may touch seminal vesicles
23.Sept - 25.Oct Chemo-radiation, Capecitabine