"Grace under pressure" is an admirable and valorized state of being however you've
got some righteous wrath going down, silverwedding, and I suggest you get
medieval on it's backside.
Round up all the cheap and fugly crockery and have a smashing good time. Then gather
up the pieces, which can be used for a mosaic. Purging those intense emotions is necessary
for your equilibrium, transforming the products of your rage into a work of art, is how Grace
Be gentle with yourself and mind those self-persecuting thoughts - this is an FGO (effing growth
opportunity) that gets pretty rough. Befriend yourself as you're going through the fire of these
intense emotions that, you know, we've been taught to believe are not ladylike or feminine.... This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
~ Rumi, translation by Coleman Barks