I'm not sure why I allow myself to revisit this over and over....but I need to. This is our last night in the house with our little Roxy. Tomorrow she will be able to join her sisters wherever our furbabies go and then not be in pain, have no more cancer and can once again enjoy the life that she so deserves. It was hard letting her eat her last dinner (not too shabby though.....petite sirloin, peas, carrots and roast beef.....CRguy....no salt, no butter....just nice steak!). She had a voracious appetite which isn't surprising considering her dinner fare!
We even gave her an extra serving of 'kool aid' water (a little dab of chicken baby food mixed with warm water) tonight! She deserves it.
Our youngest (28 on this Friday) came over and just cried and cried. He kept prolonging leaving even though I told him that he could spend the night or even just come over tomorrow on his way to work. He knew that when he said GOODBYE....it was really goodbye! I held him and let him sob and cry. He's still my little boy even though he is a grown man now.
Roxy - you helped me get through the tough times after Lesley died. You and your sister were next to me when I had cancer....you never left my side during those times when all I wanted to do was sleep on the living room couch. The two of you battled your own cancers and I hope that I was able to give you the same love and attention that you gave me. Lesley battled and beat salivary gland cancer....two surgeries. Not long after Lesley passed, Roxy had a liver resection and beat that cancer. This latest round, though, wasn't going to back down and her little body doesn't need to be subjected to the pain that will come if we do nothing. I'm NOT going to let cancer do that to her. I love you Roxy. You lifted me up from some tough times.....your little body....your cute black nose.....those adorable eyes and your wiggly little tush were too cute to allow me to stay depressed for long. This house will be lonely without you or your sisters and Daddy and I will look in the backyard for you....waiting to tell you not to chase the baby birdies or try to catch the squirrels
Thank you....from all the depths of my heart for loving all of us with unconditional love. I hope that we made you feel loved, safe and secure and gave you a life that was everything you could have ever wanted or needed. I am so glad we found you....that you came into our lives and made an impact on all of us.....including your other three fur sisters. The last 14 years with you have been AWESOME! I will miss your nose pushing open the bathroom door....just to check where Mommy is. Walking out of the bathroom and not seeing you plopped down right in front of the door will be a sight I will have to get used to. I love you little one.....sleep tonight and join her sisters tomorrow for more of the 'good old times' you had together.
I miss you already. Mommy loves you. Tomorrow will be hard. Please keep me and my family in your thoughts. Thanks