I feel exactly the same. I think it's "normal" to have that kind of feeling. We've been waiting for surgery for so long! We just need to try to stay calm (easy to say...).
Keep us updated!
i hate this new "normal." also, mom might have surgery a bit later planned so she would have 6 weeks off avastin as opposed to 5. but still, your surgery dates will still be pretty close. and you're so right, we should stay calm and enjoy this thing we were looking forward to. as opposed to reaching a borderline state of paranoia & "control freakness" (what's the word i'm looking for?); imagining potential disasters that might happen and diligently doing research to come up with rescue scenarios...
Caregiver to my super-mom (62), diagnosed Dec 2018
Sigmoid colon, Stage IV
G3, Poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma (5,5 x 4 x 1 cm)
13 positive out of 23 lymph nodes, largest one 1,8 cm
4(?) mets in liver, located at Segment 3 & 7, largest one 2 cm
LVI & PNI present
Clear surgical margins
MSS, KRAS G13D mutant
Laparoscopic anterior resection, Jan 2019
First chemo 11 Feb 2019 (Folfox). 25/2/19 Folfox + Avastin.