Hello all. So, this is my first time posting here or to anything like this. In 2016, I was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer. Emergency surgery was performed, a colostomy bag was created, I was in a medically induced coma for 7 days, I woke up, went home, started chemo. After all of that I thought I was doing okay. All I had to do was finish my chemo and then they would take down my colostomy and I would begin Avastin once I was all healed up. Welcome to 2017. During my reconnect surgery more cancer was found. Hello ileostomy bag and even more chemo. Okay. I can deal. I finish this round of chemo and then I go in for the ileostomy take down. The surgeon found no new cancer. I went back to the oncologist and she scheduled a PET scan before she started me back on my Avastin. Well it would appear now that there is a 9cm mass hidden behind my uterus and cervix. The tumor marker test for colon cancer that was performed was pretty high and I just had the mass biopsied (2/12/19). Now I am in hurry up and wait mode.
I just don't know how to handle a third diagnoses. Sometimes it feels like I can't get a leg up. I don't even know why I'm writing this but... I have a lot of support at home. People who love and care about me but... They just don't get it. They've never had cancer, they've never had to go through all of this. And they can be sympathetic but can't really be empathetic.
And it makes me feel awful when sometimes I just want to scream if I hear another "You'll be okay" or "You're so brave" or "You're strong" I appreciate it, I really do and I feel terrible that I feel like this sometimes.
Anyways, I guess I said all of that to ask -- Any advice on how to cope with this?
Beck