Postby Jordan88 » Mon Jan 07, 2019 3:32 am
Apologies for posting so late into the AM, and so often on this thread that may be a bit insensitive on this site for some people. I just need to vent my worries some more.
I’m coming down from a cold or something similar as well, and I really hope this is an isolated incident. I got sick around New Year’s Day, probably from being out on New Year’s Eve. My symptoms were a sore throat for two days, a sore side of my neck for a day or so (don’t think this was a lymph node but I could be wrong, it was not visible though), and some phlegm from post nasal drip, all clear or yellowish green, which I believe is normal during a period of sickness. I mistakenly went on a small road trip up north to Flagstaff, AZ with my girlfriend yesterday while I was still getting over this sickness and I think it halted my progress in getting better and I felt pretty bad that night. But with some rest I feel pretty much normal today, just a small amount of coughing and runny nose. Only things that concern me now are an ache in my lower left abdomen when I am in certain positions or breathe with my diaphragm (could I be constipated? Don’t feel that way. I’ll definitely bring this up to my GI tomorrow morning and will probably help in convincing to get a colonoscopy), and I just went to the bathroom to try to see if a BM would help. I did the thing where I pulled my knees closer to me to simulate a squatting position to help pass the stool. No blood I don’t think, but the stool was kinda loose, and these was a decent amount of stool (no blood) on the toilet paper when I wiped. Almost diarrhea but closer to normal stool. I don’t know if this is just from me being sick.
I’m still worried about colon cancer but I’m not as scared right now. Even if worst comes to worst, I feel confident in being able to secure a colonoscopy, as my symptoms should convince the doc despite my age. And if it is what I’m fearing, which I really don’t want to think about, I feel like being proactive and catching it early is obviously going to help in the long run. And I feel better in general seeing a doctor about my problems. I just hope I’m able to tell the doctor everything and that they don’t just brush me off. This anxiety and other things have robbed me of enjoying my life the the past few months and time only feels like it’s going by so slowly. I start to cry at the idea that something terrible is wrong with me. I know that the chances are so slim. It’s not a healthy way to think, but I often think of other people in my age range who thought “it’s nearly impossible to happen to me” yet were still unfortunate enough to be struck with it. I know the key is to be aware and not really scared of it but I find that hard. I really hope things end up well for me and that soon I’ll be able to not be anywhere near a doctor for at least six months. I should get some sleep and hope for something good tomorrow. God bless you all and I’m very sorry for acting like such a baby.