The Colon Club

I knew it was towards the end. I knew that he would not be here much longer and in knowing that, so many of our interactions were so meaningful. For two days, my husband went between lucidity and being cloudy headed. He was brutally honest in telling people to get out of his face and to stop fussing over him. He was still a gentleman through it all, trying to walk our guests to the door even though he could barely walk. He recognized my dad and mom when they arrived, and tried to tell my dad thank you for everything. He walked to the Christmas tree assisted and whispered, "Present." I was the only one who could understand him and sat him near the tree as he struggled to pick up one of the presents he bought me.

After I opened it, he smiled and came in for a kiss. Shortly after that, he rested on the couch for the rest of the day. This morning, I was able to bathe him in his bed. Before the Titans game, I changed him into his t-shirt and turned the TV up loudly so that he could hear. Prior to the game ending is when he took his last breath.

There was such a beauty in his death in that he made sure he wanted those he loved to know he loved them. He showed me love through it all, and I never left his side. He was my best friend and honestly, I am so heartbroken that it is hard for me to even think of a future without him. But, I am happy that he is no longer suffering. For those who pray, I welcome prayers for our 4 daughters who are so hurt that their father is gone.

Cross chick:
You have graciously invited people to share in both your husband’s life and its closing . . . Know that you are surrounded by gentleness and care from me and other members here.

I am touched by the closeness of bond shared between you and your husband. Some people will live a lifetime without experiencing that special one-ness, and I hope your husband’s spirit will remain within your heart as a source of comfort.

I am so sorry for your loss,
Karen

Oh my, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you.

I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Dave

I am heartened that death came gently and you all have such a beautiful
memory of this man before you faded from sight as his eyes closed on this world, he
was so blessed to walk with you by his side and the children you raised.

In my prayers.

My deepest admiration of your strength through this journey and my condolences to you for having to make it, Crossfitchick.
I know in my heart that your daughters will always know their fathers love for them.

mob

I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

Sorry for your loss and prayers for your girls <3

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your husband!*hugs* My deepest condolences to you and your family!*hugs*

I am so sorry—you and your daughters will be in my prayers.

I am so sorry for your loss, others here have expressed so much better what I would like to say. Your expression of the man your husband was has inspired me to try and conduct myself in a similar way as I seem to be on a similar journey. I can only hope that memories you have will help you and your family as time passes.

I am sorry to hear of your loss. Many here appreciate you sharing your love, faith and family through the writings in your posts.
We are all with you in thoughts and prayers during this most difficult time.
With greatest felt sympathy,
WS

I am so sorry for your loss, and full of admiration for you and your daughters for being able to go through this and still see the beauty in small moments.

You gave a great gift to your DH. He passed away knowing he was loved & cared for through your loving hands.
I hope you find some peace & continued strength knowing that, as you push through the holidays especially ...& beyond for your daughters.
Sending my deepest condolences.

BS

Thank you for sharing the last moments in such a gracious life. Prayers and condolences.
Susan

My deepest condolences. May God give you lots of strength during this difficult time.