You wouldn't be normal if you weren't anxious about your scan, especially the first one. I still take Ativan before going to find out my results.
Your scan will either show that Folfox is working (so you can relax until the next one) or not (in which case, they will change your treatment plan). Chances are, that it's the former, but it's a journey that requires some coping skills, as the worry itself can do you in mentally. Glad to hear you are seeking out a psychiatrist - you may not have any control over the cancer, but you can get help with dealing with it.
Do you see your oncologist on the same day as the scan to get your results, or will you have to wait for that? Either way, I wish you all the very best luck, and will be rooting for you
May 2015 right hemi CC cecum
removed terminal ileum, illeocecal valve, appendix, cecum, ascending colon, omentum
stage 3b T3 N1b MX 2/27 nodes (isolated tumour cells in 1 add'l node)
PNI - positive
LVI - positive
Folfox 12 sessions (oxi discontinued for 11 & 12)
Neulasta with 3-12 due to low WBC count
CEA at diagnosis 8.6
CEA after surgery 1.2
CEA during chemo 4.6 / 3.3 / 2.3
CEA after chemo 1.5 / 1.2 / 1.2 /1.2 /1.2 / 1.4 / 1.1 / 1.2 / 1.9 / 1.3 / 1.6 /1.4