Last week we had to put my 19 1/2 year old Chihuahua to sleep
He had many health issues and the last day wasn’t eating drinking or able to stand up
He couldn’t get him to his vet and had to go to a local vet
Jerry was mostly blind had major hearing loss
A hole around his heart arthritis
Since his last vet visit a few weeks ago it seems like he was expecting liver failure
The vet said they could admiringly and give him fluids but ....
We already knew it was coming but it was so hard
After we made the decision the vet said he was pleased as he felt it was time but didn’t want to influence us
Jerry was kind of out of it but when they gave him the first shot to sedate him he cried and it broke my heart
I wanted to grab him from the vet and run home with him
I was able to hold him and talk and pat him thought and watch him take his last breath
We have had pets my whole life but I was never the one in the room at he last minute
It was the hardest thing I have ever done
Including cancer
During chemo Jerry was the only reason I got up most days
I had to keep going to take care of him
It’s been 11 days and I still cry every day
I almost can’t see the keyboard right now
Jerry was the best dog ever and life is empty without him