'm freaking out quite a bit though. Hard to think about anything else, even while working. I pray and hope for the best, but somewhat expect the worse. I can feel the anxiety clawing at me.
I know exactly what you are feeling. Although I do not have cancer, I am a caregiver of my mother who was DX with 6cm Stage 3 Rectal Cancer. She just had her final surgery which was the reversal ileostomy. I can say this page has given me so many tips, suggestions, tears for support, advice, etc. I don't have time to go to in person support groups cause I have no time. You will see that you will go through up's and down' during your journey. You will be super strong and confident and some days you will be down and sad. It's all a roller coaster. I feel that I am the one who saved my mom's life. She was having such pain in her rectum thinking it was hemmy's. The dr. kept having her get CT Scans, MRI, blood tests, and one stupid thing he didn't make her get was a colonoscopy so I suggested it. BAM, cancer was found! I didn't tell my mom it was cancer until I let my dad know first. I was in tears when the GI dr. pulled me aside while she was still sedated and let me know the bad news. I will never forget that day for the rest of my life. To hear that your loving mother or anyone in your family that has cancer and to be the first person finding out before that actual person finds out is just devastating. I used to work at the cancer center in an amazing hospital in the radiation oncology department and learned about many different types of cancer. Just know, that this is a great support group and we will be here for you. Lastly, I searched high and low for a board-certified colorectal surgeon on the west coast for my mother. I found the best of the best chief surgeon who was able to save her rectum by hand sewing one for her so she wouldn't have a pouch for the rest of her life.
She is still recovering and it will be a long journey. I recommend you look at reviews, talk to people, read Yelp reviews, etc. You want the best. Good luck and sorry for the diagnosis, but early TX is best!
Caregiver/daughter to dear mother age 78, dx 5/09/17 because of me!!
Rectal CA Stage 3 low-grade adenocarcinoma- 6 cm
Neoadjuvant start 7/10/17 ended 08/16/17
3D Lap. surgery @ Keck USC, Dr. Sang Lee 10/17/17 temp ileostomy
11/1 hospitalized abscess/hernia - back home 11/06/17 antibiotics
NO LYMPHS INVOLVED! NEAR PATHOLOGICAL RESPONSE! YAY!
Took her last chemo med 05/10/18! Ileostomy reversal 07/24/18
First BM after reversal 07/25/18
Me: 1st Colonoscopy age 38. 08/17 Benign polp.