Snoop wrote:I got ny port removed today. With my treatment over & my wonderful wife, family & friends celebrating me “ beating cancers ass” I feel I’m not celebrating as much as one should. I know how it acts, I know the statistics, my Dad died of cancer.
With the follow up blood test, CT scans & colonoscopys I know it’s not over in my mind. I am optimistic about my future.
Everyone said I “did great”
I guess the reason for my post is, some of you that have gone 4-5 years with no recurrence, is that always in the back of your mind? I’m one to put things behind me & move on. I really want to do that with cancer too, but I’m afraid that won’t be the case. I am a positive person but this seems to be total different.
michelle c wrote:Initially, it seemed to be the only thing I thought about....it was always there, the worry, what if it comes back? However, with time it did get better. I remember thinking, wow, I haven't thought about cancer for a few hours...but I think that that was quite a few months after I finished treatment. I started to feel a little less anxious after about one year post treatment but still always anxious around testing. I was diagnosed in May 2009 and I still think about it but not so much. It was a huge deal so I'll never forget. Don't be too hard on yourself and just know that the anxiety and constant thinking about it, will ease with time. At first, this is hard to believe, it seems that those dark thoughts will never go away but it will get better. Hang in there and best wishes.
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