Good Morning everyone,
I'm sure you get worried posts from people all the time so I will try to keep this brief.
I am 25, I turn 26 tomorrow.
But I have been having worries about my bathroom habits.
For as long as I can remember I have had problems with constipation and I am no stranger to bloody stools. They would happen infrequently as a child.
As I got older I also had the terrible habit of not doing number 2 in public so I constantly hold my stools, disgusting I know. It was so bad that when I was in college I would hold it the entire week and only go when I would go home for the weekend. Because of this I paid no concern to strange things going on in my bowel movements, i.e blood, narrow stools.
A couple of years ago I realized this was wrecking havoc on my stomach and causing me to having chronic constipation. So I started going regularly despite my location. I started feeling better and I noticed my stools where easier to pass.
Well recently, as in the past couple of months I noticed when I wipe there is blood on the tissue, I also notice my poo has a reddish tint to it. I went to my GP who said because of my age it was probably hemorrhoids but to be sure she sent me to a specialist. When I went to the specialist and describe my symptom (mainly bleeding) he scheduled me for a colonoscopy. Okay, so everything is good? No.
Immediately I started to talk myself out of it. I was worried about being put to sleep (I never had any kind of surgical procedure before) and I was worried about it they found cancer (I honestly don't know how I'd live with myself). So with all this in mind plus me telling myself that it was only hemorrhoids and I'm only 25 so my chances are slim I cancelled my procedure on the day before.
Well yesterday after a bowel movement I discovered my poo had the reddish tint. I WebMd'd my symptoms and the top result was colon cancer. I started reading up on CC and discovered that it is pretty treatable if it is found early so I broke down and scheduled an appointment with the specialist. It will probably be another month before I can get the colonoscopy but I'm determined to go through with it even though I'm frightened. I know it's important but I just really am scared of the procedure and the possibility of cancer. I have tears in my eyes now as I write this. I just really needed to vent. Being young none of my friends really understands how this feels and my parents aren't helpful either,
Any encouraging words will be appreciated. Thank you