DAY 6 -Since Radiation Therapy
SNIFF... Sob... OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
WOW it hurts like ...... to pass faeces. All the numbing drugs and all.
And when you start you just can't say '..time to stop now relax..'. Partly because some of the muscle motion seems automatic in there and partly because it is so, so painful to have muck stuck in the painful area. It won't move back so you just have to whimper and push it forward or else scream away inside....
All sorts of mucus and muck as well (I was warned about it all) BUT so, so unpleasant.
After the 20minute event I just feel so tired (honestly panting..oh brother), shaking and nauseas!
I can grit my teeth so to speak but you cannot turn off the underlying bodily reaction (almost like being in shock ?????) that just plods along.....YUK
Feeling much, much better now even over the time writing this.
Now for a clean up of my rear end etc..... A fair bit of radiation burning, skin cracking etc
Welcome Steve to the world of fighting colon-rectal cancer. And I am winning pain and all.
Thank you folk for being there to listen.... You are all such a great team....
Aged 56 - I feel really young...
Colo-Rectal Cancer T2 N1 M0
March 2018 - Diagnosis
April-May 2018 Radiation+Chemo then a TIA (Minor Stroke). - Stopped Chemo.
June 2018 - Sitting it out before operation. ....Pretty Miserable- emotions gone weird....?!
*Decided to live to 100 as I will get a telegram from Her Majesty the Queen when 100yrs old. I so, so want one.
Am a Salvation Army chap so I complete 'knee drill' (prayer) to the Commander in Chief often. For myself personally this helps me through.