Hopegirl wrote:I’m trying not to live in fear , this is still a shock to me . I have no family history. But I will try my best to stay positive and just take it one day at a time .
Let me take you back to my own past if you'd like ?
Star Wars ... Master Yoda ... martial arts ..... a post to a buddy here on CTalk
Hey buddy your post reminds me of a silent promise I made to myself at 42 y.o.
" I will earn my black belt by the time I am 50." The year I turned 50, I passed my first degree black belt grading in the fall.
It was always inside my mind, with positive thoughts and energies .. and literally became a part of me ...
thoughts into action
Like the old Nike commercials "Just Do It" It will go a long way towards your recovery both physically and mentally. You will be glad you did.
WHAT I learned from that experience is why I am still here NOW !
After grading to second degree black belt, that was my the introduction to " ...you got CRC ! "
AND I accepted it as just another challenge
just another grading
just another opponent
The mind, IMO is everything ... and we can fill it with harmful, self-destructive,
crazy monkeys chattering constantly inside our heads
OR, as you have discovered and shared
Fill it with Master Yoda !
“Do or do not. There is no try.” - Master Yoda
be kind to yourself
be honest with yourself
be real with yourself
BUTT sometimes it IS time to kick some personal ASS ...
and who better to benefit from that ??? .... than ourselves !
Cheers and Mega Harmony to all on the Journey
CRguy
YOU
Hopegirlhave it within you, the strength, the courage ....
to be your own best friend, advocate and warrior
whenever I would go to the dojo to train, the world literally disappeared for 2 hours for me.
It was my
fortress of solitudeduring a very extreme time in my life (NOT cancer related) I noticed that when I entered the dojo
I couldn't focus, couldn't escape from the world, could not BE in that space the way I had before
BUTT ... I just kept going back day after day
and at some point, things seemed to just start getting closer to normal for me
not the exact SAME as before ... but just closer to normal
AND I just kept going back
That was in 2000 - 2001
Now I am into 11 years of survivorship from Stage IVa CRC (from 2007)
Please JUST keep going ... day to day, week to week
to wherever your GOOD place is
you have one, we all do
mine was the dojo and I "lost" it for 6-8 months
BUTT eventually I found it again
and we are all here to help you find YOUR good place
Harmony on the journey
CRguy