This is my first post here, though I’ve been a lurker for several months since my diagnosis.
I have been having horrible side effects from FOLFOX. I just finished my third cycle. My Oxaliplatin dose was reduced which helped with the sever fatigue I had been experiencing. Fatigue is better, but I still have crippling depression with each session. I have been on anti-depressants most of my life (on them now), and am familiar with the blues. I start getting irritability and tired towards the end of the chemo session, and then an overwhelming depression sets in and lasts for 4-5 days. I feel too tired to get out of bed, and there feels like nothing tonged out of bed for. Nothing seems like it could give me joy or make life worth living. TV and movies become uninteresting. My awake hours are spent mindlessly scrolling the internet. It feels like the walls are closing in. Miserable.
I’m thinking of stopping my chemo. I can’t imagine 5 more months of this. Can’t do marijuana/opiates because of my job. Don’t want to die, but can’t live like this. I don’t know what to do.
Help