Many don't know me because I've had this crap now for 8.5 years. I was a regular on the forum for the first three years and then I slowly got away from it. Every year I would update on my anniversary. The last two years I didn't even do that because I was in treatment. Well here I am again. I was scanned in Nov and told things looked great! Then 10 days later ended up in the ER with a deflated left lung. The cause, well seems like a small tumor was blocking the lung. Didn't show up in the C-scan. So back into chemo and radiation. Then I get pneumonia. Not good. I spent 15 days in the hospital during Christmas and New Years. I finish my chemo and radiation and 4 weeks later I'm back with pneumonia. When will this end? I have been fighting cancer every year now for to long. I'm tired and worn out. Some days I wonder if it is all worth it. This last round was so hard on me. I had a 24 hour chemo pump, 7 days a week for 6 week plus my radiation and I just don't think I can do any more. I'm already worried about the next time and it's not even here yet! Dr. says I should be glad that I'm still here. I am but I just worry about how bad it's going to be in the end. If you have read this far thank you for listening to me rant!
Tammy