Hello everyone. I have been reading through posts here for the past 6 months looking for comfort and guidance while I've been seeing Dr after Dr. I do not, as of yet, have a colon cancer diagnosis but I fear that it's a possibility. I hope it's ok that I post here and ask some questions? I, in no means, mean to be insensitive and apologize if I come across that way at all. I am just scared right now and having such a hard time sleeping that I was hoping to gain a little peace. I do have an appointment on the 8th of this month with a gastroenterologist, so I'm not looking for a diagnosis here.
Let me start with my story and the date my life became a lot less worry free. In mid June, as I slid off one of my daughters beds after saying goodnight to her, I noticed a terrible pain inside my buttcheek. I reached down and felt a large lump that was painful and swollen. In the morning, I headed into the ER where I was diagnosed with a peri-anal abscess. All of my labs (CBC & CMP) came back normal. I was given a prescription of Augmentin 875-125mg for 10 days, twice a day and sent home to "wait and see what happens". The meds didn't touch it so I went in again and this time they did a CT scan with IV contrast. They ran labs again and all were still clear. The CT scan showed Lung bases are clear, no intestinal obstruction is present, no dilated loops of the bowel, no appendicitis or diverticulitis, a fat containing ubilical hernia is present, a subcentimeter cyst in the right renal parenchyma, a left sided cystic area of the uterine fundus, and it says there is no pathologic lymphadenopathy seen througout the exam. There impression was a right sided perianal sinus and probable ovarian cyst.
At this time, the Dr opted to send me home with another round of the same antibiotic to see if it would clear up the abscess. It did not. I went in an met with a general surgeon who told me it would need surgery and this is where it got really scary for me. I was diagnosed 10 year ago with hemmorhoids that currently bleed every 6 months or so only after straining. When I mentioned to him that I have rectal bleeding from time to time and asked him if the bleeding could actually have been from the abscess, he stopped and said very sternly that I needed a colonoscopy because he's seen 2 year olds with colon cancer before. And then went on to tell me that we needed to take care of the abscess first and deal with the rectal bleeding after this was resolved. He also sent me home with another round of antibiotics. This time was Flagyl 500mg 3 times a day and said we would operate if this medication didn't clear it up. It didn't.
SO I went in to the ER again with rectal bleeding and a very sore and inflamed abscess. Another CT scan was done at this time. This time the report said, Diverticula is noted in the colon, the visualized portions of the small bowel are normal, there is no lymphadenopathy, ill defined soft tissue in the right adnexa suggesting an ovarian mass, a 4.5x1.7cm collection of fluid/debris with gas suggestive of an abscess is located in the perianal area, The findings again were perianal abscess and diverticulosis.
The surgeon came in and operated on the abscess. I was sent home with a 2nd round of Flagyl and pain meds. And the abscess has now come back. It fills up, pops and drains and feels better for a short bit and goes through the same thing over and over. I am afraid it's developed a fistula. And I do know it'll need more scans and another surgery.
Here are my concerns and what I am dealing with now...I have TERRIBLE anxiety about all of this. I can't get out of my head that he suggested I may have cancer. It has taken FOREVER to get into a gastroenterologist and the appointment is almost here. I am scared. I don't sleep more than a few hours a night and wake up in full blown panic attacks. I am still bleeding rectally after straining. I have flat stools all the time now. They will change back once in a while, but only after I take metamucill or up my fiber a ton. Then it's right back. I have had 3 months of daily nagging dull pain in my right abdomen and flank area. Like a light cramp that will move around from under my rib cage, to mid ab area, to lower ab area. It will even ache around into my back. I have had no weight loss. On the contrary, I've gained weight recently. I am overweight and trying to work on it, but I am exhausted. This constant dull ache/cramp is a constant reminder that something is wrong. And I don't know what. I am so scared it's something sinister. I try to tell myself that my guts just hurt from all the medications they've given me, but I can't convince myself to calm my nerves. Can anyone please share their thoughts or tell me if this sounds like I should be worried? I would appreciate it so so much. I know this was terribly long winded, but I wanted to give the full background. Thank you for reading it all.