ScaredButGottaWin wrote:Had surgery two days ago, planned to do resection. Unfortnately, they found several seeds/mets in peritoneum, so they sewed me up and I start chemo soon. So I am stage IV signet ring adenocarcinoma. I am so lost and hopeless. This cant be happening. It is not fair. My wife doesnt deserve to see me die. Please no this cant be happening. How do I moveforward, when the odds are my credit card will outlast me. Ifeel so temporary. I hate this world of F-ing cancer. I am not mentally strong enough for this. I just cant believe it
Well, that sucks!
Backing the truck up here, you just had surgery two days ago
and I hope that you're still in hospital and
post-surgery pain is being managed nicely? Before you go decking your wife out in widow's weeds and
having her maxing out that credit card with retail therapy j-u-s-t y-e-t (nothing like premature imagination),
dial back on the Charlie Brown AUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!! for a sec.
Seems to me that you are already moving forward with your chemo scheduled to start soon. Your surgeon/oncologist/
medical team are practiced and experienced in carrying you to the next stage - all you have to do, for now, is show up
and maintain a curiosity and willingness for how this f-ing-journey-you-did-not-sign-up-for is going to unfold. Fortitude
will come to you, humans are hard-wired to be real hard to bump off when we get our dander up.
What decision did you come to with notifying your employer and work colleagues?viewtopic.php?f=1&t=59130&p=467411#p467411