Hi Guys,
Boy, I'm 5-weeks done with my 12-rounds of Folfox, and my emotions are all over the place.
I guess I'm "processing" now that I'm no longer focused on treatment/surgery/getting through chemo.
So glad to be done with infusions, but I am struggling with the uncertainty of life and next steps for me, etc. Kind of like an existential crisis -- which probably happens to many 46-year-olds, anyway -- but this cancer-thing sure does wallop you upside the head.
In another post, someone said there's a lot of ups and downs, and I guess I just wanted to say it continues and ask the longer-term folks if they went through this, too.
I've already been doing tons of therapeutic stuff throughout -- therapy, sound bowl therapy, yoga, meditation (not as regularly as I should), walks, dance, etc. -- and will continue to do so, but I'm trying to figure out what's gonna make me happy on a daily basis (besides focusing on the kids)...