mike218 wrote:I'm 4 years since dx. Most recent surgery in NY (april) for removal of residual colon tumor and liver pump-did not go as planned they found 3 peritoneal spots -in June developed hip pain- though it was due to positioning-turns out its bone mets (who gets bone mets from colon cancer???) --anyway
Oncologist thought we should go for a trial-seems belief is to attack what we can now vs waiting until we are desperate (basically my thought was he felt all was lost) so
got selected but suddenly depressed at thought of no chemo (until or if trial fails) and using new MD's
on top of that now an issue with getting into trial due to increased blood pressure (still on Avastin so likely main cause) though I am prob the only overweight person with cancer in this world (I thought 2 colon resections and chemo would surely end the battle with my weight)
this constant yo-yo of change -no change is wearing me down-going for repeat blood pressure in AM--finger crossed and prayers
Mike - so sorry to hear you're going through this. For the record, I'm the poster-child for overweight person with cancer, so don't think you're alone there.
I understand how your mind would go there, but then there are SO many recent advancements that are really making a difference, if your doctor is possibly going to help get you on a short-list to get new/trial treatment that could help, why not check it out. To hell with why he offered (pardon my french). It's so hard not to let this disease get you down, but don't lose hope. There are so many stories of hope. Try not to let it get into your head. Also, make sure they take your blood pressure at least 3 times. For me, since diagnosis, the first 2 times are always high just due to nerves, even if you feel calm, cool and collected. I'll be saying some prayers for you tonight. Let us know how it goes.
Smiles, hugs and prayers,