I know this is easy for me to say...butt...don't borrow trouble. Words of wisdom shared with me long ago.
Right now, in this moment,,,,you do not 100% have cancer. Until you are told otherwise,,,,you do not have cancer. I know it is scarey given what they found,,,,but you have to stay in the NOW. I worked that mindset even during treatment...only allowed myself to think about the current stage, stayed in the NOW, didnt allow myself to worry about what was next. It served no purpose to go there.
Today, you don't have cancer. Enjoy your child, enjoy the day and IF your doctor tells you otherwise, know that you have an amazing group of people here that will walk with you...one step at a time.
Sending you many gentle hugs...
'06 Stage 1 CC,
'10 Stage 3 Rectal
"You never know how strong you are until you have to become your own hero."