when you are feeling your lowest, look up 'bomberbob' and his posts...poignant to say the least.
as for me, today i almost drowned on a dive, almost. i would like to say God gave me a metaphor on my cancer and survivorship.
so today, i was diving the Manassir wreck in Muscat, Oman. 100ft down, low visibility, and i was caught near the captain's quaters inside the ship. think of yourself at the base of the Statue of Liberty looking up, that's how far I was down.
For a moment, I had a rush of claustrophobia hit me and I almost panicked...but i quickly regained my composure and forced myself to breath deep, close my eyes, and figure out the problem.
needless to say, i didn't drown. however, i did burn up half of my air tank in 5 mins, which should have otherwise kept me down for 60 mins.
i just had a glass of wine and smoked a cigar in celebration of life, of myself. what i learned is life is what we have no matter what and it will surely end one day, but we need to always fight for what we have...
keep fighting, teacher...never quit or give up on yourself...no matter what!
Male 49 yrs.
09/10/2017: Colonoscopy 2.2x2 cm lesion - Invasive Adenocarcinoma - NOT Genetic
09/13/2017: CT - No Mets - Very slightly enlarged LN
09/19/2017: Chest Xray, CBC, CEA 2.0. normal
09/20/2017: LAP Rectosigmoid - 8' and 25 LNs removed
09/21/2017: Biopsy - 1/25 LN slight molecular invasion
Dx: Stage IIIa - T3 N1 MX
Chemo: Ox stopped after rnd 3 of 8; 5 cycles of 4000mg Xeloda remaining
10/09/2017: PET negative; no molecular activity, no metabolic activity, NED. T3 N1a M0