Rainykatie wrote:Hi there, you are not alone.
Rainykatie, thanks for sharing. Reading yours, I felt I was reading my own post. I gained 9 pounds since Jan, I grew so much grey hair now I seriously consider dying my hair (have small kids, and don't want other kids to ask, is that your grandma?), I have been postponing my annual exam for 6 months, waiting for the completion of the chemo, the first CT, the first colonoscopy, I couldn't focus at work, I also find frustrating that we won't be able to go away (really away away) for vacation.
I've been trying really hard to "rebalance" my life lately. According to the "oxygen mask" theory, we, caregivers, really need to take care of ourselves first. Little things like cutting down the candies, taking a walk during lunch time, all help. I also found so many hidden jewels in local area! Within 10 mins drive from where we live, I found several trails. Within 30 mins drive, there are several small parks we've never visited. I realize the disease really changed my perspective of life, little things like a pretty trail can make me happy now. Since I can't turn back the clock and change the fact that DH has the disease, I will have to look forward.
Thanks again for sharing. Best wishes to you and your family.