When I first joined this board after being diagnosed, I had a tough decision to make. I could choose the standard treatment for rectal cancer (radiation and Xeloda followed by surgery and then six months of Folfox) or I could choose a clinical trial (no radiation, three months of Folfox, then surgery, followed by three more months of Folfox). I was frightened and overwhelmed by the research I had done. Many people offered their opinions, advice, and support. Some were very direct about which choice they thought I should make. I didn't see it as bullying at all. I was grateful that people who had years of experience with this disease were willing to share their thoughts with me and help make the decision process easier.
You are new to this disease and this board. Many members here have been not only fighting the fight for years as patients or caregivers, but they come back regularly to help those, like you, who are just starting the battle. Members who have been NED for years still pay it forward by showing up here. You have no idea how many friends they have made on here and then lost to this sucky disease. It makes you feel angry and helpless which can make you passionate when giving advice. Do you honestly think they stick around to bully people? They stick around to try to help save lives. They've had to watch as people they care about made choices about treatment that ended up killing them. Everyone deserves to choose their own path, but it can be difficult to watch as the treatment they've chosen fails and the member we've grown to care about weakens and then loses the fight.
We are also very protective of the reputation of the board and what new members see when they first find us. Most new members are in shock and overwhelmed and looking for a miracle cure, an easy way out of this nightmare that doesn't involve radiation or being cut open or having toxins pumped into their system. And who can blame them? But some of the alternative treatments offered will let the cancer eat away at their bodies until traditional treatments are no longer possible. We don't want to bully anyone into anything, but we have an enormous amount of experience and research into treatments behind our membership ranging from standard treatments to alternative treatments to clinical trials. And sometimes we get people who post once to promote some miracle cure book or website and never come back again, one that has been looked at through study after study and has been proven to be hogwash in the fight against this disease. So we want to be sure that any "cures" being posted have valid research and studies behind them to protect our most vulnerable members. You can understand that, I'm sure.
Also, this is the internet, where unless your words are accompanied by a hundred emoticons, it's hard to judge tone and intent. Passionate feeling can look like bullying. A large number of people who've been through the same experience all agreeing with each other can feel like being ganged up on. The people I've met on here are some of the kindest I've met in my life. I would have had a much harder time getting through my battle without their support and advice. Give them a chance. Drop your defenses a bit and acknowledge that they have years and years of experience, research, and information to share with you. You and your husband will still make your own choices at the end of the day, but you'll do it with so many more facts to help you make that choice. I personally learned more on here from asking questions and reading about other member's experiences than I did from my doctors. That made me so much more prepared when I met with my doctors. They tend to only tell patients what they think they need to know, but if you ask the right questions so they know you have a good basic understanding of the treatments, they will open up and tell you more.
And lastly, when you really think deeply about it, you have to know that coming on a board full of people who are battling colorectal cancer and have lost so many they care about to colorectal cancer and saying that 47% of them could have prevented it by living a healthier lifestyle wasn't a good idea. Even if it's true, it's hurtful and not a good idea. It's called blaming the victim and these victims have already had their lives shattered. They don't need to hear that it was their fault. If a woman is raped, do you tell her she deserved it for being alone in a bad part of town late at night? Of course not. You support her, you comfort her, you help her through it. People who are going through the hell of cancer don't benefit from hearing that if only they had exercised more or ate less beef and more vegetables, they could have avoided hell. They are already in hell. That ship has sailed. So support them, comfort them, help them through it.
Here's a friendly emoticon so you know I'm not yelling but speaking in a reasonable, calm voice of friendship.
Judy