Beansmama Checking in
Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2017 2:55 pm
HI everyone,
Sorry I have been so absent. Quite honestly my life has kind of gone to hell in a handbasket the last few months. Well except on the CRC front, that is about the only thing that has been going positively.
It started mid February when I found out that my husband, who up until then I had thought was amazing (talk about having my head in the sand, totally missed the signs until it was too late) was having an affair, and had been for quite a few months. While I was going through all the chemo treatments, sicker than a dog, he turned to someone else. It began as an emotional affair then crossed the line.
To say I have been a bit of a wreck is putting it mildly. I have come to terms with it, and now with a pending divorce. We are living as room mates until I am healthy enough to do everything on my own. He knows he will be paying dearly for his choices, normally I am not that type of person but this time I am going to go for all I can. I need to think of kiddos security before my pride which would have me not take a red cent from him. We have not gone public with the divorce yet, which made things a bit more difficult for me. I had very few people I could talk to about it.
But, on to the good news, my oncologist told me yesterday that the treatment I got may be my last. I have a CT scan on the 26th, and see the surgeon again on the 27th. If she finally gives the go ahead for surgery he said Larry could be served his eviction notice as soon as the first week in July. He seems to think that now is the time to go in, I have gotten about everything I can get from the Keytruda. Thankfully the wait time is minimal unlike chemo, the surgeon said I only need 2 weeks after a treatment and they can operate. That time frame will be up when I see her next so I'm keeping my fingers crossed!
I have been doing really well, I have started driving again thanks to the ritalin they put me on to combat the fatigue. It also counteracts a lot of the effects of the pain medication so I am able to do a lot more than before. I started just going to the local coffee shop during the day to get out of the house. Now I go to most of my appointments on my own, go shopping etc. Have some plans for the summer with the bean, hopefully surgery doesn't impact them too much.
I hope everyone is doing well, I am still keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers.
Sorry I have been so absent. Quite honestly my life has kind of gone to hell in a handbasket the last few months. Well except on the CRC front, that is about the only thing that has been going positively.
It started mid February when I found out that my husband, who up until then I had thought was amazing (talk about having my head in the sand, totally missed the signs until it was too late) was having an affair, and had been for quite a few months. While I was going through all the chemo treatments, sicker than a dog, he turned to someone else. It began as an emotional affair then crossed the line.
To say I have been a bit of a wreck is putting it mildly. I have come to terms with it, and now with a pending divorce. We are living as room mates until I am healthy enough to do everything on my own. He knows he will be paying dearly for his choices, normally I am not that type of person but this time I am going to go for all I can. I need to think of kiddos security before my pride which would have me not take a red cent from him. We have not gone public with the divorce yet, which made things a bit more difficult for me. I had very few people I could talk to about it.
But, on to the good news, my oncologist told me yesterday that the treatment I got may be my last. I have a CT scan on the 26th, and see the surgeon again on the 27th. If she finally gives the go ahead for surgery he said Larry could be served his eviction notice as soon as the first week in July. He seems to think that now is the time to go in, I have gotten about everything I can get from the Keytruda. Thankfully the wait time is minimal unlike chemo, the surgeon said I only need 2 weeks after a treatment and they can operate. That time frame will be up when I see her next so I'm keeping my fingers crossed!
I have been doing really well, I have started driving again thanks to the ritalin they put me on to combat the fatigue. It also counteracts a lot of the effects of the pain medication so I am able to do a lot more than before. I started just going to the local coffee shop during the day to get out of the house. Now I go to most of my appointments on my own, go shopping etc. Have some plans for the summer with the bean, hopefully surgery doesn't impact them too much.
I hope everyone is doing well, I am still keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers.
My guess is that your husband will suffer for making this life changing desition - and at this time in your life?! To be a caregiver is not easy all the time but ... No, I do not get it.
- No it did not help. 
and driving again must feel so good! The words from your oncologist 
The very best of Luck for the upcoming scan.