Beansmama Checking in

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Lee
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Re: Beansmama Checking in

Postby Lee » Wed Jun 21, 2017 4:35 pm

BeansMama,

You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Sorry for all that is happening to you. Yes, know that this too shall pass and you will watch your DD grow up.

Lee
rectal cancer - April 2004
46 yrs old at diagnoses
stage III C - 6/13 lymph positive
radiation - 6 weeks
surgery - August 2004/hernia repair 2014
permanent colostomy
chemo - FOLFOX
NED - 16 years and counting!

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CRguy
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Joined: Sun Feb 10, 2008 6:00 pm

Re: Beansmama Checking in

Postby CRguy » Wed Jun 21, 2017 10:20 pm

BeansMama wrote:Thank you everyone,
Your support has moved me to tears - but good tears.

I am seeing a therapist to make sense of the whole debacle. I have been for a little while now and I think that is one reason why I am doing much better with the whole thing.

I did make a stipulation when I first found out that absolutely nothing would happen in that department until I was healthy and recovered enough that I no longer needed assistance with some things and that I was able to be on mom duty 24/5 or whatever visitation we work out without any issues. So for now we live as room mates trying to co parent and be at least civil to one another. Some days it is easier than others.

I keep telling myself this too will pass and my future will be brighter than ever. If I can tackle all of this, anything else is a piece of cake.


WORD sista' .... WORD !!!!

just to share with you BM ( :shock: :lol: )
I have been the "left behind" partner, not for the same reasons as your situation, just that "we" grew apart ... apparently
I found a counsellor who was raw and real and my takehome was :
"You have only ONE nervous system you can protect in life ... Your Own.
Forget your expectations of others, they will let you down. What do YOU need in life ? "

Counselling / therapy will not fix you. It will help YOU discover what YOU NEED, to be who YOU are, and how to get it.

You may well find the strength you need to be who YOU ARE was inside you all the time, and NOW is the time to let it out
....AND LET IT SHINE !

my WORD to you my friend

You are who you need to be already ... now let it SHINE !!!!!!!!!!

Peace Love and Harmony
CRguy
Caregiver x 4
Stage IV A rectal cancer/lung met
17 Year survivor
my life is an ongoing totally randomized UNcontrolled experiment with N=1 !
Review of my Journey so far

Joannerogers
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Joined: Tue Jun 16, 2015 4:50 pm

Re: Beansmama Checking in

Postby Joannerogers » Fri Jun 23, 2017 3:50 pm

Im so happy that surgery is around the corner!

Upset for you about your husband but I'm ignoring any bad news and choosing to be happy that that scrondrel Larry will be gone soon!
53yo married 27 years, 2 children, 24 and 25
Diagnosed april 23,2015 rectosigmoid
Starting CEA 1845
Port placement and liver bx April 27
Folfox started april 29
Avastin added on May 6
Stage IV crc with mets to 50% of liver

10/13/15 dc'd transfusion #12...toxic
Pet/ct scan on 11/3/15
20% liver resected all margins clear 11/30/15
8/18/15 cea 21.
9/15/15 cea 13.9
10/13/15 cea 14.4
1/22/2016 cea 2.5
LAR 02/15/16 all clear

AbbyDoo
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Joined: Wed Jun 29, 2016 2:25 am
Location: So.Ca.

Re: Beansmama Checking in

Postby AbbyDoo » Mon Jun 26, 2017 3:33 am

Hi BeansMama,
Just wanted to wish you luck today with the surgeon. I sure hope you get good news from your CT scan.
Hopefully Larry will get his eviction papers :D today
53 yrs old
4/30/15 colonoscopy Mass found
5/21/15 staged 3 C rectal cancer
7/3/15 finished xeloda and radiation 28 rounds
9/30/15 LAR
10/29/15 picc line installed
11/2/15 start chemo 5 fu Oxaliplatin
3/7/16 Finish Chemo
4/29/16 Ileostomy Reversal.
7/13/16 colonoscopy clear.
CRC survivors know there Sh%t

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BeansMama
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Joined: Thu Jan 28, 2016 1:38 am
Location: North Carolina

Re: Beansmama Checking in

Postby BeansMama » Fri Jun 30, 2017 9:16 am

CRguy wrote:
BeansMama wrote:Thank you everyone,
Your support has moved me to tears - but good tears.

I am seeing a therapist to make sense of the whole debacle. I have been for a little while now and I think that is one reason why I am doing much better with the whole thing.

I did make a stipulation when I first found out that absolutely nothing would happen in that department until I was healthy and recovered enough that I no longer needed assistance with some things and that I was able to be on mom duty 24/5 or whatever visitation we work out without any issues. So for now we live as room mates trying to co parent and be at least civil to one another. Some days it is easier than others.

I keep telling myself this too will pass and my future will be brighter than ever. If I can tackle all of this, anything else is a piece of cake.


WORD sista' .... WORD !!!!

just to share with you BM ( :shock: :lol: )
I have been the "left behind" partner, not for the same reasons as your situation, just that "we" grew apart ... apparently
I found a counsellor who was raw and real and my takehome was :
"You have only ONE nervous system you can protect in life ... Your Own.
Forget your expectations of others, they will let you down. What do YOU need in life ? "

Counselling / therapy will not fix you. It will help YOU discover what YOU NEED, to be who YOU are, and how to get it.

You may well find the strength you need to be who YOU ARE was inside you all the time, and NOW is the time to let it out
....AND LET IT SHINE !

my WORD to you my friend

You are who you need to be already ... now let it SHINE !!!!!!!!!!

Peace Love and Harmony
CRguy


CR,

How do you get in my head??? Lol

That is exactly what I am doing. I have found me again. I didn't realize how much I had given up to make him happy. I am me again and loving it. Doing my thing, when I am ready to put myself put there again I am holding out for the one who sees me and wants that. And will value what I have to offer and treat me the way I deserve. I will settle for nothing less.
41 yrs old
Tumor found 9/2015
Surgery 1 - 11/2015 LAR and colostomy
Surgery 2 - 11/2015 wound vac
Surgery 3 - 12/2015 revise resection, move colostomy
Mets to liver - tumor inoperable - one add'l met destroyed
Stage IVa (T3 N2a M1a)
Primary tumor 9 cm x 7.5 cm x 2 cm
Beginning Folfox 1/2016 - Failed
Beginning Folfiri and vectibix 8/2016 — Failed
Beginning Folfirinox + Avastin 11/2016 - Failed
Beginning Keytruda 1/2017
CEA drop from 345 to 7.3 after starting immunotherapy
Lynch positive 3/2016

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CRguy
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Re: Beansmama Checking in

Postby CRguy » Mon Aug 07, 2017 1:05 pm

BUMP !

Sending posi+++++VIBES out
to the new improved I am me again and loving it BeansMama 2.0 !!!!!

Cheers and Harmony sista'
with you on the Journey

CRguy
Caregiver x 4
Stage IV A rectal cancer/lung met
17 Year survivor
my life is an ongoing totally randomized UNcontrolled experiment with N=1 !
Review of my Journey so far


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