Hi everyone,
I'm Going to have a bit of a moan..... Sorry
So I'm 41 today and it's the hardest Birthday of my life, as the time goes by since I lost my Dearest Husband to Colon Cancer in 2014 the heartache seems to grow stronger.
The more my beautiful girls grow and mature it saddens me that my Husband can't see them, every achievement and success they have has a bitter taste that's makes me feel guilty that I am seeing this alone.
As time goes by things are meant to get easier but it doesn't seem to be happening, the children's lives move on and they are growing fast but their memories of their Papa are fading and it's breaking my heart.
I don't know if it would be better that he was here and I was gone because I don't know if I can raise them well enough without him.
I'm in confusion and everything is like a dream, I just wish he was here.
I know that many of you are suffering much worse than I but as my CC Family you guys have always been there and I just wanted to share and try and lighten the burden.
I wish you all of you the best no matter what the journey ahead has in store for you.
Keep strong and never give up hope, I'm trying to do exactly that.
Love always and God Bless