Very sorry for your loss. I am borderline depressive, maybe some what manic as well. Its been many years since I was heading towards that kind of black despair. Its been my wife that has kept it at bay all this many years. I've never been bad enough to require medication, and I am very reluctant to consider that as I depend too much on my mental faculties to have them dulled by medications. I can't comprehend how terrible it must be to loose your son and then your daughter!
Best wishes to you. Be strong and don't let despair get another toe hold on your family!
DW 53 dx Jun 2013
CT mets Liver Spleen lung. IVb CEA~110
Jul 2013 Sig Resct
8/13 FolFox,Avastin 12Tx mild sfx, Ongoing 5-FU Avastin every 3 wks.
CEA: good marker
7/7/14 CT Can't see the spleen Mets.
8/16/15 CEA Up, CT new abdominal mets. Iri, 5-FU, Avastin every 2 wks.
1/16 Iri, Erbitux and likely Avastin (Trial) CEA going >.
1/17 CEA up again dropped from Trial, Mets growth 4-6 mm in abdomen
5/2/17 Failed second trial, Hospitalized 15 days 5/11. Home Hospice 5/26, at peace 6/4/2017