Postby Beckster » Sun Mar 26, 2017 6:27 pm
Hi Judi
You are not alone! I am usually a very positive and people use me as their support system because of my positive attitude. However, when I was diagnosed right before Thanksgiving and starting chemo two days after Christmas, I went into a dark place. I did not want to see anyone...I did not leave my house...I cried every day... I started my chemo on Dec 27th and on my first infusion, I had a severe reaction and ended up in the hospital for observation. Mind you, I had stage 2A and chemo was an option. Even though I could not take Oxi, I started 5/FU in pill form, Xeloda. Pills for 14 days(2 weeks) and off one week. I cried during my first cycle and told my husband I can not do this for 6 months. I finally realized that this is temporary and I need to change my attitude and push through...
I am now starting my 5th cycle tomorrow. I never thought I would make it this far. Only 3 more cycles to go through. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I use this forum to help me make it through each cycle. Everyone on this forum understands because they know how we feel.
Start counting down... only 10 more, than 9 more, than 8 more...... Put a big countdown number on a board to help you. Feel free to contact me to vent or discuss... WE CAN DO THIS!!!!
57/F
DX:(CC) 10/19/16
11/4/16- Lap right hemi(cecum)
CEA- Pre Op (1.9), Pre Chemo (2.5)
Type: Adenocarcinoma
Tumor size:3.5 cm x 2.5 x 0.7 cm
Grade: G3
TNM: T3N0M0/IIA
LN: 0/24
LVI present
Surgical margins: clear
MSS
12/27/2016 - Capeox, anaphylactic
1/2/17 to 6/9/17- Xeloda
6/17,12/17,6/18,12/18,6/19,12/19,12/20,12/21 CT Scan NED
CEA- 6/17-
3.6, 9/17-
2.8 12/17-
2.8, 3/18-
3.1, 6/18-
3.0, 9/18
2.8, 12/18
2.5 3/19
3.1 6/19
3.1 9/19
2.6 12/19
2.8 6/20
3.0 12/20
2.7 6/21
2.9,[color=#000000]12/21 2.7[/color]
Clear Colonoscopy 10/17, 11/19,11/21