Postby vilca11 » Fri Jan 06, 2017 3:18 pm
I did not mean to create such a discussion on this subject. All old members of this forum recognized who I am talking about, judging by Thank you emails and PMs I've got... That one particular poster, that I had in mind, as it was mentioned before by others on the thread, was advised many times in a nice manner to seek help, but never listen. No one was able to stop that person from the continuing pattern - it is a modus operandi in that person's life to contaminate others. So for me it was "enough is enough"....
New people here misunderstood my message. I was always among the first ones to share important info, among the first ones who showed compassion, empathy, emotional support to our fellows who cried, lost hope, vented, desperate, depressed, etc... But anger, hate, jealousy are not what we need to be repeated in rants here.... all about Me is not what we need to be repeated in rants here...
Out of 700+ posts that I wrote in 3 years of being here, less that 5% are about me, or with my questions, and I never complained. Even these "less than 5%" almost always had info for others... I am "scheduled" to die soon, I've been making my last extremely hard efforts to save my life for the last 15 mo , and I did not want to add any of my negative feelings to the suffering of others - that is why I was out of the board for a long time, posting only at the beginning of my experiment and after it. Btw, I do not have any negative feelings - that is what spiritual work for the last few years did for me... And one more Btw - my post was the only post of this sort I have ever made... that alone shows you how much me and others were fed up....
My message to this one poster who aggravates heck out of others was not an expression of anger or any other negative feelings of my own - it was a need to stop that person from contamination of the board, need to speak the only language that person understands and need for a direct reflection of the behavior that person is exhibiting - may be now it is evident to the poster how such behavior could be viewed, which might help to stop it...
I thought I owe the board some explanation, so now you have it...
Thanks, Vilca
11/2005 CC stage 1, F,50yo@dx
Mod dif adenocar, MSS, APC, TP53, CEAs1.6-4.8
1/12 1met liver@Vena Cava, RFA, 3oxi,11 5FU
8/13 2 mets same place,SBRT
4/14 2 Xeliri+Avastin
5/14 Nano Knife liver same 2 mets
6/14 2 Xeliri, ADAPT
4/15 PET, 2 same mets,Cryo Liver
5/15 MJ Oil, Herbs, Suppl, ADAPT
10/15 PET, same area, doubled in size, high SUV
10/15 RH, HAI, visceral involv., no LN
2/16 red FF, 50% red dose FUDR, CEA trends up
3/16 CT, PET, MRI L.Lobe all in small tumors
4/16 No acceptable options, going home