Wonderfullymade wrote:I just read a book that help me tremendously by Levi Lusko titled " Through the eyes of a lion" He is a pastor who lost his 5 year old daughter to an asthma attack. He really does an excellent job of making heaven real...
If you allow just one word to explain how I am adapting to my own recent transition to Hospice it is may be this: God/Higher Power.
I sustained an extensive perforation of my intestine approximately 4 years ago and was declared clinically dead for all of 2 minutes, revived successfully by the coordinated efforts of a trauma team.
I have defined death once. I will not be so fortunate this next time.
I can tell you about my experience during the time that I was "dead." While it is not something that I share freely or openly, in the instances that I have shared of my near-death experience people the response has been positive. People tell me that they my experience has given them a sense of peace and comfort.
Where did I go during my near-death experience?
I am not exactly sure. My sense is that I was somewhere between this physical place that we call Earth and the metaphorical concept that we call Heaven.
Describe the situation? What happened during your near-death experience?
I was surrounded by a nebulous swirl of what I can best describe as a cloud or fog. It was as though I was in a fish bowl, looking outward through the water. A prism effect where shapes had no regular form.
I had no physical body. I was purely an energy source.
I felt no pain, as I had no physical body. This was immediately apparent to me as in the days preceding the acute intestinal perforation I had been very uncomfortable and in significant pain. I was immensely relieved to no longer be in pain.
I felt no fear. I felt no anxiety. No concern or worry.
How might this be?
The first thing that I recall that I was in the presence of God/Higher Power. His presence was not a physical presence. There was no body shape or form. His presence was manifest as an intense and ever present energy source. All encompassing. Immensely comforting. The energy source was immediately recognizable to me as God/Higher Power. I knew that I was "talking" to God/Higher Power.
There were no words exchange. But there was "dialogue" in the a metaphysical exchange of energy between us.
It was not a conversation with God/Higher Power in the literal sense of verbal words exchange. Rather it was dialogue as a flow of energy. I was given explicit goals and directives in returning to life on earth.
I will add that not a day goes by that I do not give thought to the goals/directives that were issued to me. I've done the best that I could to be pay my respect to the goals/directives given to my some 4 years ago. I've done the best that I could to be the best person that I could be.
How/why did I come back to earth?
It was not for me to choose or decide. It was a decision/choice that God/Higher power made that I was to return to remain on earth for a while longer. I have to assume that God/Higher Power felt that I had unfinished business to attend to.
Honestly, where ever it was that I was was so comfortable and safe and pain free that I wanted to stay. I do not know so much that I wanted to come "back home" to earth.
I have no doubt that the experience was real.
My near-death experience is making it easier for me to acknowledge my recent transition to Hospice care.
I hope that sharing my near-death experience will help someone(s) approach death/dying with less fear.
- Karen -
Dear friend to Bella Piazza, former Colon Club member (NWGirl).
I have a permanent ileostomy and offer advice on living with an ostomy - in loving remembrance of Bella
I am on Palliative Care for broad endocrine failure + Addison's disease + osteonecrosis of both hips/jaw + immunosuppression. I live a simple life due to frail health.