Hello,
I’ve been hesitant to post as I’ve lost some good friends to cancer and I suppose I have ‘survivor’s guilt’. My survival, in my mind, is simply a matter of chance rather than courage, a fighting spirit, faith, or a totally changed lifestyle.
That said, when I was first diagnosed with cancer I spent many hours looking for posts written by longtime survivors. As a result, I thought my post might be helpful to those who have been recently diagnosed with advanced colon cancer. (I also have a friend who was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer at the same time as I was and he too is doing well.)
A little bit about me: I first visited this forum ten years ago when, at the age of 39, I was diagnosed with Stage III colon cancer. My diagnosis was T4N1MX. My sigmoid tumour was sizable (it had breached my colon wall and invaded my small intestine), there was lymph node involvement and some suspicious lung nodules that had to be monitored for a couple of years. My diagnosis devastated and angered me. I never saw myself as a ‘cancer warrior’ as I was quivering in my boots for all of my treatment and, for that matter, a couple of years afterwards.
Ten years later, I am living an interesting life. I have moved to another country, started a PhD at a (very) late age and while I haven’t forgotten about my cancer experience, it no longer haunts me as it once did. In fact, it likely provided me with an empathy that I didn’t possess prior to my diagnosis, specifically towards those who are undergoing health issues. It also, pretty early on (when I was uncertain of what the future held for me) provided me with a clear lens to see what was important in life and what wasn’t. I also realized who my true friends were.
In the last ten years, I have lost some good friends to cancer and I dearly miss all of them. I also miss some wonderful people that I met on Colon Club who have since passed (specifically Rodney Thornton, who was absolutely hilarious and an anchor during difficult times). When I was undergoing treatment and afterwards, this forum was a lifeline for me.
Warm wishes to you all,
Monique